Hi everyone, today is my first day sober and I am confident in myself in staying sober due to my past efforts in doing so. All my life I have experienced a form of anxiety but never really thought of it as anxiety. Whether it was back in high school being around friends or situations involving family I just thought of it as being a personal habit that wasn’t so bad and in the end it didn’t affect me nowhere near like it does now. For the past 6 years I have been consistently smoking weed and doing illicit drugs such as ecstasy mainly and cocaine from time to time. I also experienced a bad period of time doing opiot, benzos and other prescription drugs and abused my body very hard to the point in which I have pre much cut off most pharmaceutical drugs off now for a while. After the last few times I have taken any of these drugs I have found myself to have extremely bad anxiety at moments especially situated where I am with a group of people, weed doesn’t affect me anywhere near like the heavier drugs where I have experienced panic attacks whilst high on the heavier substances like ectacsy and cocaine to the point thinking people are talking shit about me and them having negative body language when in reality it’s all in my head since I only hang out with close friends and family, i feel like it definitely isn’t the environment . I feel like all forms of eye contact whether in the corner states or straigjt in other people’s eyes and overthinking what people are feeling or what they think of me has become my downfall at times but not all the time. I have moments where I overthink and they snowball into a stage where I literally struggle to function in the heat of the moment. Has anyone else experienced any of these mental illnesses as I am interested to know whether I will be ok if I continue to stay sober, exercise and eat healthy. Thank you and much love.
Welcome!!! You can do this! I once heard that it doesn’t matter where in your recovery you are, as long as you keep moving forward. You can be on your first day or your 10th (like me!) or your 100th. Every step of the recovery process is important!
I come to this app every damn day and honestly if I didn’t, I wouldn’t be able to maintain my focus. I think it really helps me keep my goals in mind. And remind me that I’m not alone! We’re all here for you!
My partner has experienced similar things to what you described. Getting sober is the only thing that works for him. He doesn’t have those paranoid type thoughts after being sober for a while but it takes time.
Good luck on your journey! 
Thanks guys much love to you, I look forward to the journey and all the best to everyone on here