I know all substance addiction and the path to sobriety are very similar but I sometimes feel alone because no one I know gets why I crave PCP, or to be more precise, PCP-derivates, especially 3-Meo-Pce.
3-meo-pce in particular send me to the hospital two times, because I got violent and delirium. Yet I get cravings and thoughts of it everyday, because of the epiphany’s and bizarre distorted visual and general perception. Truth is: most of the hours on it I don’t enjoy it and often got scared of the Chinese trying to control my mind and the weather. But the first 2-3 hours of it have always been euphoric and that’s of course what my addict brain tells me to repeat. Sometimes I think about it every 5 minutes even when exercising, in sauna or even while having sex. Can anyone relate? I’m 26 days sober now btw