I feel like my brain is addicted to addiction itself sometimes. It always wants to indulge. Even when im doing well generally, I turn to binge eating, or scrolling on social media for hours! I feel like I need to fundamentally change as a person, not just give up one substance. But I don’t know how.
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A lot of addiction for me is dealing with the mundaneness of life. I suppose we live in a society where we are constantly needing stimulation and if we don’t get it, we feel anxiety.
A big part of dealing with addiction is learning to be comfortable in your skin and also learning to sit with nothingness and regulate your emotions by breathing and meditation
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Beautifully put. Finding those moments of awareness, connection, breath = a lessening of the hold…a shift in the pattern…a change in my reaction. 
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I can relate to this definitely. I have an addictive personality. I don’t do anything in moderation. Even though I’m almost 8 months sober from opiates, alcohol, and benzos I still struggle with cigarettes, caffeine, Internet, Certain hobbies… If I get any sort Of good feeling or escape of reality I will do it to excess. But I’m learning some things take time. I feel I’m taking care of the more serious addictions but I still have some that are damaging that I need to work on. Here lately I realized the negative effects Of too much Internet Especially YouTube. Sometimes I have to turn my phone off and put it somewhere else for the day and try to be OK with silence and being still Or reading or stuff like that. Little by little I have faith that my brain is being retrained. I don’t have to be perfect I just have to have the willingness to look at my life and actions.
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You are not alone in feeling this way. There’s lots of good advice here: Resources for our recovery
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I managed to get addicted to a decongestant nose spray.
I used it a few days for a cold,… Then some time passed… then realised it’s been using it every day for three weeks or more.
Turns out it has an addictive ingredient!!!
Just further proof that I have an addictive brain.
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Socks & hoodies! 
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I was scrolling, trying to tell myself today I binge a whole day of sugar Woke up, feeling hangover like never before since my drinking days it was such a reminder of how I used to be waking up in a fog
I find myself binging sugar, social media shopping
I’m feeling really angry at my body. It’s in a lot of pain. Loneliness
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I’ve heard of that before it’s a very real addiction. You’re not the only one.
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Yeah I was quite lucky cause if you use it too long it actually causes your nasal tissues to swell and then you get stuck in this cycle of using it. Luckily I realised what was happening, but it was a few days of a swollen uncomfortable nose before I got back to normal.