If it’s not your vice / destructive habit, do what works until it no longer serves you positively. I’m glad that you’re actively saying no to the hard stuff. We’re all here for you. And thank you. 
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How is it delivered? Sounds great. I’ve only got a drug and alcohol counselor which helps for the substances but I don’t have a therapist. Or mental health clinician.
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Is she okay?
For me it was in a group session with others who also had BPD. There was a workbook and all that. There was also one on on counselling as well 
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Yeah… I know how you feel. I was in an accident that killed my friend. That feeling alone is the biggest underlying factor in me never wanting to drink again. At least it was just your arm 
stay sober knowing it could’ve been much worse.
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I have figured out the pattern for my drug use and boozing.
It all starts off with me experiencing and emotion which triggers me to drink, in order to not experience that emotion.
Depending on how strong that emotion is, will determine how fucked up I’m going to get.
If I’m just a bit stressed from work, I might have 6 beers at the depot and then go home and try to finish another 6. Eat food watch YouTube then go to sleep.
if I’m completely stressed out through the roof and everything’s going wrong…
It’s highly likely I will drink to the point where I’m drink driving, searching for drugs and then God knows what happens if and when I get my hands on the drugs.
I’m not actually addicted to anything except weed but I have a tendency to turn to other drugs and booze and when I do it’s almost always a nightmare situation.
Thanks knives, I have seen your post send you have commented on my stuff to I know about your crash. Tragic to hear about your friend. Was there substances involved? Did you sustain any injuries?
I have never heard of a service like that where I’m from. I’m surprised my psychiatrist didn’t offer any treatment options besides medication. I might ask my DNA counsellor to help find something along the lines.
Yep. Booze and blow. I was hardly hurt at all… fucking awful.
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I love this
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Thanks I will talk to my doc.
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Sorry 
I’ve lost a few friends but not in such sad circumstances as yours. You’re lucky to have survived. Were you guys hooning?
Your welcome
Just wow … mind blown. Word for word.
You’re welcome and thank you for sharing. It’s really interesting for me to hear anyones story and experiences with BPD.
I can totally agree upon acting on impulse and upon emotions. I find that my emotions can change very quickly even instantaneously and lasts for a very long time which is why I have often turn to substances.
Excuse the voice-to-text
How’s everyone feeling today?
I’m fine thanks. hope you’re good too. I think for me the most important trait of having a personality disorder is my basic lack of trust in people. I grew up thinking and feeling I had to fend for myself from a very young age. That all the others were either there to harm and hurt me or would leave the moment I put my trust in them. That I could only rely on myself and I had to figure out how to navigate life all by myself 100%.
I think this is still my basic modus operandi and I can’t shake the patterns and behaviours I formed in my early life. I did improve a bit over the years by working hard on myself. But it’s bloody slow and tedious work. Since I got sober i feel more of an urge and need to do something about it before all of my life will have passed me by. I got diagnosed recently by the most specialised institute in the country and am now on a (very long) waiting list to start schema focused cognitive therapy which has yielded good results for ‘my sort of people’. So hopeful that will be helpful to me. Being here working on my substance abuse problems has also helped. I realise I need to put my trust in others and I can’t do it all alone. I’ve known that intellectually for at least 30 years but emotionally and spiritually only now I’'m starting to believe it.
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