Tomorrow will be my forty fifth consecutive day without a drink. During that time I have not just tried to make to-do lists and write down my goals but to reflect every few days and document changes in my behavior, changes in the quality of my relationships as well as my performance at work. Here are a few things for the better I have noticed and a few things I’m still struggling with or confused about.
- My overall has health has drastically improved. No more throwing up blood. Shit, no more throwing up.
- I’m saving money. Even at 15 bucks a day I’ve saved $675. That is as conservative of an estimate as I can give. It’s probably closer to $1200.
3.I have had a very positive impact at work. A lot of this has to do with a schedule change. Getting me out of the kitchen at night and bringing me into the kitchen in the morning has kept me out of the bar and helped enable my sobriety. I truly believe in the importance of developing good habits and breaking bad ones. For years I had a beer after closing the kitchen. It had become basically second nature. It’s taken time but I don’t really associate the end of my shift with having a drink. - I’m getting back in shape. Being ripped while drinking daily is almost impossible. I’ve already lost close to 15 pounds and am seeing a significant transformation already in my physique. I’m getting closer to going to the gym just becoming a habit. Something I do 5-6 days after work for 45 mins.
- My self esteem is improving. With all the improvements I’ve been seeing lately I can’t help but be proud of my self. I have dealt with guilt and shame for so long. It’s nice to look in the mirror and smile.
…after all that positivity I think I’ll pass on getting into my fears and insecurities.
