It’s my fucking feelings!!
That’s what I’m trying to control.
Anyway…….Woke up with a great ear worm this morning. One of my higher powers, music, working magic on me. “That’s Just Who You Are” by Aimee Mann.
Thanks @Soberbilly
Brought me to tears. It was beautiful. 
Love a good cleansing cry first thing in the morning.
Anyway……
If I’m experiencing what I feel is a traumatic experience. It might just take me a day or 2 to get over it. And I think I got to learn it’s ok to feel sad, and even despise the addict. And I might not be happy for a couple of days. And that’s going to have to be ok.
If my addict literally falls down drunk trying to get to bed. I might just have to feel grief for a couple a days. I didn’t like it. But I can honestly say I didn’t feel resentment towards my wife. No, I wasn’t happy to be around her the next day. And yes I was a sad sack. And yes I was depressed. I blamed the depression on a headache, I did have. When I was asked if I was depressed, I should have just said yes I’m depressed. Ya I’ll step in that “should.” 
So I’m better today knowing That’s Just Who I Am. A very sensitive fuck. And Next time, I’m not going to fight or try and control or “Let Go,” of those sad, gloomy, heartbroken, hangdog, joyless fucking feelings.
Now I just have to remember this shit 
