Most of my drinking was due to having major depression and anxiety. Low self esteem. No friends. Everybody finding fault in me. I stayed locked in my room. Not socializing etc.
For the last month, with not drinking. Day 25 today. At work i have been trying to do better. Been talking to other staff alot. Trying to fit in. Trying to be one of them. Trying to be poaitive and upbeat etc. Today i get called in. Complaints about me now. Others are complaining saying i talk to them too much. That i talk about my life history etc. I am still in shock. Thought i was being friendly.
This really hurt my feelings. I tried to be a better person but it did not work. I wont be talking to any of them now. Just feel like going back into my hole with my bottle and be done.
Oh man I’m so sorry to hear about that. I have been diagnosed with anxiety and ocd since 14. Work is the worst for me. Some days I’m so unconnected I feel like everybody thinks I’m invisible. On good days, I overcompensate for the bad days and am loud and boisterous. Also been accused of talking too much. But drinking isn’t going to help that about you and me. Living and learning from your daily routine WILL help that about us. Learning when to talk and how much to say to certain people. Therapy is great for it if you have insurance or can afford it. Hang in there. You tried something new And there’s nothing wrong with that.
What kind of cold hearted people would honestly go up to their manager and tell them that a Co worker has been socializing with them too much… If it was unappropriate that’s one thing, but if they were busy they should of just asked you politely if you guys could talk after work, your better off without those people and to be honest I feel like they have something going on in their lives that they can’t handle talking to someone else about their life… That struck a nerve… You don’t need to resort back to the ways that were killing you just because a few people don’t approve of you being more social and trying to help yourself. Fuck them.
Umm yeah…I’m all seriousness, your coworkers sound like douchebags…and that your work environment is dull and lacking and full of tension…ain’t nobody got time for that. It looks like work can be work for a little while. Are there any hobbies you have? Or groups you could think of joining to get out there after work? Keep your chin up…some people are just miserable…luckily…you are choosing to rise above that frequency of misery with your sobriety…you win.