I’m 74 days sober from alcohol and weed. I’ve admitted that I’m powerless over alcohol. These 74 days have been amazing, and I’m truly grateful for:
No more police cases, court fines, or accidents.
Much better sleep and improved skin tone.
My bank hasn’t warned me about MAB (Minimum Average Balance) since I’ve kept my balance above zero.
I’m getting enough projects for my work.
But I still face some challenges:
Sometimes my mind feels unmotivated and lazy. On certain days, I feel like I can’t do anything. But then, on other days, I feel motivated, happy, and optimistic.
I feel this way too sometimes. I try to remember that life is not about productivity. Life is about presence: being present with my higher power, being present with my body in a healthy way (like if I need a day of sleep, then I need a day of sleep, and that’s ok), being present with the people I care about (people in my community - my recovery group - and people in my family (my wife)), being present in the present time, and not fantasizing about the past or the future, or some other type of fantasy.
If I am present in meaningful and constructive ways, then I’m ok.
Excellent work on your sobriety days… so very happy for you 
