Not too many live and somehow do it alone. The others are locked up or covered up.
Acceptance is the answer I needed too. Then a plan on how to live differently. I do it every day and it just works. A simple program for a simple drunk. Hugs & see ya around!
What are you doing on a daily basis to seek outside support for your sobriety?
Yet your last post was 7 months ago.
What have you been trying, seriously trying to get and stay sober? The mute wish itself wonāt get you there. And simply not drinking willl also not be enough.
Engaging, reading and posting here is a major asset in early and later sobriety. Would be a good starting point.
Here are some things that have helped other ppl who did them: Resources for our recovery
Here is what folks with long term sobriety can pass on: Your #1 tip for sobriety (over 2 years sober)
Good luck. It can be done. But you gotta do something.
Welcome back on here 
best of luck. I find here very helpful with the support and advice etc and Iāve relapsed many times too but found my way back here too. Coming up on 24 days now. One day at a time
You can do this. And try not to be to scared to face the truth about your health by hiding behind a bottle. You can have a sober life and you can have a healthy mind and body. You donāt need to apologise to anyone. But you do need acceptance and know you deserve better and to work on that daily. Get all the support you can and take it slowly. Wishing all the best
I also went back and read your old posts and you have used the word āhopeā multiple times over the 5+ years since you joined this app, itās a painful read and one Iām familiar with, I āhopedā for a long time I could control/manage my alcohol, I āhopedā I would not further damage my health, I āhopedā things would just change without having to really do anything. It took things to get really bad to realise I had to change everything.
Getting sober is hard work and not many people do this solo. Try everything, listen to those who have recovery time up their sleeve, get involved.
Iām glad you have not given up 
So glad you are back. Iām so glad I never gave up. I canāt add anything, just reinforce that nothing changes if nothing changes. Whatever you havenāt tried in your past attempts (AA or other sober community meetings, rehab, etc.) need to be added to your recovery plan to have a shot at success. Getting sober doesnāt have to be done alone. I really loved my sober communities from day one.
Donāt let another 5 years go by still imprisoned by alcohol.
Try a meeting make it simple meet new sober friends who have been were you are now wish you well. have to make a effort if you want sobriety
So glad you keep coming back though! You obviously know what you need to do, and you have some fight in you. Time to really accept that you have a problem. Like really accept it. Accepting is a huge step because it isnāt just admitting you are powerless to this problem- itās also finding your power to face head-on something to which you are defenseless. The only way you do that is with an arsenal of tools. It isnāt enough to just want to be sober. You have to work at it every minute of the day because that voice always creeps in and tells you itās time to unwind and you can just have one and one drink or one day doesnāt hurt. This time around I am trying to keep it simple. I accepted my problem and found a great power in simplicity. My number one tool is that I never question my decision to not drink. No matter what I end up telling myself. I never question that decision. Everything else stems from that numero uno tool. And I like the poetry of admitting I was powerless and then finding power in making the decision to not pick up. I like the power of committing to it no matter what. Find your number one power- the thing you cannot question or talk yourself out of any time- and hammer it down. If you donāt know where to start or where to get the tools, read up the posts here, go to meetings, and find the people with the tools you can take and use immediately.
You will be soooooooo much happier if you quit! Good luck! You can do it!
Its really good to see you! Im sorry uv been struggling but im so glad ur back and fighting for sobriety again
Great to see you back. Take it ODAAT. 
An old timer once said to me
āThe gym and diet wonāt fix what is wrong with you, but it might make you a bit lighter for the guys carrying you into the churchā
Hit home that one.
A pivotal point in my sobriety is when I changed my relationship with alcohol; you can learn about my process by clicking this link here.
Changing the way I viewed alcohol made it an easy choice to abstain. I encourage you to start changing your relationship with alcohol today!
What are you feeling physically I am in the same boat about damage
I used to feel the same way. Meetings worked for me. It was the last thing I tried and the first thing that worked. It was tough to give up my will power and admit I needed them and wasnt going just because I wanted to. Today Im over 2 years sober. Was a daily all day drinker didnt think I could or would ever stop until death.
Mainly just stress and exhaustion tbh. Iāve also noticed my hair thinning which Iām assuming is due to alcohol ruining my stomach. Iām very fortunate to not experience many withdrawal symptoms.
Im so disappointed in myself. I thought i could have a few but as we know it never stops till its all gone. Now i feel like shit this morning and i have to go to work. When will i learn that im not a normal person who can have 1vor 2 drinks. So very sad this morning
Youāre here and youāre sober today. Thatās what matters.
Whatās a normal person? Who cares? You are a person that canāt have one or two. Have you learned it now? Bookmark this, screenshot it, record it. Look at this whenever you think you can have one or two. Because you canāt, just like me. Actually life is much simpler when you get rid of the notion that maybe somedayā¦ Our relationship with alcohol (and all other drugs) is over. Never again, one day at a time. And good riddance to it too. You can do this. Donāt go it alone.
Thank you i needed that. I took a screen shot of that so i can look at it often and when i think i wNt to have just 1 drink.