Hey, good to see you again! How are you doing?
Thanks for your words, we do have to find fun stuff, but I’m having a hard time at this moment, I feel down and have little energy, but i hope it will come back in time. I’m also thinking about joining a group, i think it might be good for me and keep me on track this time.
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Day 1
Had the worst anxiety attacks and feeling exhausted. My fuel tank is running empty. Well, I’m back (again)…
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Good to see you back.
For me it has always been something else than drinking. But once I stoped drinking, everything was better and I became able to truly help myself and got better in every way.
Take your time. Be compassionate with yourself.
Thanks, it’s good to see you here. Quiting isn’t the problem for me too, but keeping on it. After a while I think: I’m feeling great, one drink won’t be a problem, it will be fun and relaxing! And it is, those first few drinks.
I hope you’re doing well!
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I’m one week from being half a year sober and I feel like a very different person. I don’t miss booze.
I stayed a couple of months in Asia to completely detach from my environment and to think. I felt lonely sometimes, but also got a lot out of it. Before Asia I drank and that didn’t feel good. Travelling helped to snap out of that state. I drank my last wine in the plane to Bangkok.
There are some things going on personally in my life and I feel like I’m on a crossroad. Without alcohol I can make better decisions, think more clearly. I’m still a wreck once in a while, even had a slight anxiety flare up today, but overall I’m way more at ease with myself and my feelings.
I get compliments about my skin and yesterday somebody said I was glowing. I think it’s not so much the not drinking, but my mindset that reflects in my appearance. I even feel my face is relaxed, in stead of that stressed state it was in.
I’m making plans for a half year travel for next winter. I got so much out of being away from home and some months by myself, I want more of that.
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Back on day 2. After 7 months of sobriety I thought one glass of champagne to celebrate my friends wedding wouldn’t hurt.
So again, back on track.
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Hey Naomi! I’m so glad you made it back. Seven months probably felt really good. You tested the waters and found out that alcohol does indeed suck. Sober living is great living and I’m glad you are back.
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Thing is, I tested the waters multiple times after months of sobriety, but drowned every freaking time 
In Dutch we say: a donkey never hits the same rock twice. It means something like: only stupid people make the same mistakes 
But thanks, I’m glad I’m back too!
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Hey, what’s up since you came back on here ? 
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Yep, I’ve done the same thing countless times.
Abstaining for over 2 years was my longest stretch at clean living. Like you, I find myself back here. I will not give up trying to stop drinking tho. I know I can be a better person if I do not drink.
Hoping you can find a way too. 
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Glad you are back!!! Sounds like you learned a lot. That shame and guilt sucks so bad. You can let that cycle go now and build pride and self love. You are worthy of it for sure.
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Hi WCan, are you still active on TS? I was thinking of you, hope you’re doing well!
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Crazy I never saw this thread before… Glad you’re strong in your sobriety now Naomi 
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Hey 
still around sometimes but not much active. How you’re doing ? I just re-read this 3.5years old thread. It’s been a long ride. it’s nice to see you back-on-tracking again 
On my side I’ve managed to stay away from alcohol. But I still have hard time coping with my addictive tendencies. Like you said sometime last year or before, removing alcohol is like removing a mask, it make us see our true problems underlying the bad habit of drinking. Of course the drinking is a problem in and of itself because it’s a drug and a poison. But now because of years of alcohol abuse I’m stuck with 2 problems (at least !!).
The first problem/layer is the addictive tendencies: coping stress/émotions/whatever with some kind of binging (now no alcohol, but food, obsessions, …). I feel like this layer is only the result of years of using and now my brain is stuck with this tendencies to look for comfort into any kind of consuming/binging.
The second problem/layer is deeper, and I feel like it’s hidden by the first. I tend to forget it and it’s hard to work on (because I have to fight so much the addict part). I’m pretty sure it’s the reason I started drinking at first: some sort of vulnerability that I have hard time accepting. Most of the time I am ok with all that. But some times I realize I’m kind of living under a mask and it hit me in the face.
Wow sorry I feel like my message is more depressive than I am really 
I was just trying to relate to some of the things we said in this thread before. I feel like a lot of work have been made in those years. I guess what I want to say is that it’s not always easy, but it’s worth it.
Also I’m a dad now and I am in LOVE with my kid. He’s just the best! And I feel like I am really myself when I’m with him, and that’s amazing. It’s like discovering him and myself at the same time.
I hope you’re doing fine ! Keep us posted 
I’m really happy to hear you’re still sober and BIG CONGRATS on your son! Being a sober and present dad is imo the best gift you can give him.
I think your reaction is more realistic than depressing, and it is so relatable. Drinking is a symptom and numbing us. Once we quit, those underlying issues will come up.
I can relate to having those addictive tendencies. For example I’m quite seditary nowadays and seeking distraction on my phone. Although I’m working on it, I’m also kind of accepting it for now. But I’ll have to (and want to) work on past trauma and long term goals for the future if I want to get any further in life… Sobriety isn’t the end goal, but it sure is the biggest first step.
For you it might be vulnerability, for me it basically boils down to a deeply rooted insecurity that I need to work on. But all in all I feel those are not the worst things to deal with in comparison to drinking. Plus I’d choose insecurity and a seditary life over being drunk or hungover any time 
I’m really glad to hear you’re doing well, thanks for the connection all those years ago, you really helped me a lot in my early days! 
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