Well I’m back…I had to check how long it’s been and it’s almost been a year…I was shooting for a year sober and now I’m restarting 
I thought I was maybe an alcoholic but I know for sure I am now. I’m tired of it again I really just want to stop all together. The last time I posted I posted about a book called quit like a woman. I guess finishing that would be a good start. I’m just so sick of not being able to NOT drink. And even when I know I’ll get a migraine I’ll do it and then I can’t stop. It’s never even worth it. I guess I’m just looking for some encouragement or some grace. Is anyone else starting fresh recently too?
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Welcome back 
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Welcome back Laine.
Not new or starting over. But. Crushing headache hangovers use to be my specialty. And of course I’d drink again. The madness of our disease. I’d be in the shower with a gallon jug of water at 3 am with the worst headaches in the world. Did that stop me from drinking. Not usually. As soon as I felt better I’d drink just a little and I’d be ok. Nope! Never happened.
I do a lot of gratitude work everyday right here on the gratitude thread. Waking up sober and hangover free makes my list every day. I might not write it every day. But I’m so grateful I never have to have hangovers ever again.
I’m glad you’re back.
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Welcome back Laine 
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I’m here too! I started as a chronic relapser, then eventually I went several months without drinking. And for the most part, I even stopped thinking about it. But then my birthday came, I drank, plus the week before. And here I am again.
Don’t worry about not being able to NOT drink, it’s always your choice, no one can take that away from you. Choose what makes you better, what makes you happy. For me, that’s not drinking.
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Tearing up at these replies! The longest I’ve made it was two months, I’m looking forward to that feeling of not thinking about it as much. Thanks for sharing and making me feel less alone! And that’s true, it is my choice. Working on believing I’m strong enough to hold to the right one. 🫶🏻
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Thank you🥰
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Hi Yeah, I’m in the same boat. I quit on 20 Sep 2018, lasted 19 months then relapsed for about 2 years. I’m on day 16 now and can fully relate to that feeling of disappointment and despair.
Don’t pick up that first drink and you can’t have a second.
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Oh I love this thank you for sharing that with me it really helps knowing we aren’t alone in this. I know I’m not but to hear it is empowering. Good job on 16 days we got this
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Welcome back!!
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Thank you sm!
Welcome back Laine 
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Thank you 
🫶🏻
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You can do this, try 24 hours. And be positive, you deserve happiness, you are much more than a bottle.
The booze is only a big amount of problems, and all of us want a, at least, normal life.
Thinking in giving up it is just a positive thing. You have the diagnosis, now put into work the remedy: And you now there is only one: drink absolutely nothing.
Best luck, we can do this!
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Welcome back. You can do it.
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Welcome back! I’m not new, but I think of every day as another day one. Just without the hangover or flood of self loathing. I make a pledge to myself to not drink today. All those day ones add up, but my commitment is fresh and still urgent.
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I totally get that! It really is a feeling of one day at a time.
And thank you😊
Welcome back! Stay!
One day at a time. Dont even get ahead of yourself and start thinking of how this one day will lead to two and then ill have a week and then…NOPE just stop.
One day, one hour, one second, right freaking now is all that matters.
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That’s true thank you for that reminder
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