Well, I reset.
Day 39 and I had an overwhelming desire to have a drink…and that quickly turned into three.
I’m not too thrilled with myself but I guess it is what it is.
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But you’re here..that’s what matters
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@VSue, Dang I didn’t expect that. It’s like all my buddies that joined around the same time at the beginning of December are being picked off by an enemy sniper…
I know you don’t need some speech. It’s just a minor setback. You have eyes on the prize and know how to get there!
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I didn’t expect it either. And oddly, the first drink was a conscious choice. I told myself I would have one, I would reset and then move on. But I just kept pouring.
I guess I now have proof that I just CAN’T be a normal drinker (if there is such a thing).
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Been there done that. Took me a couple of those “just one” to realize I can never have just one. Best of luck to you
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Oh no 
I’m glad you came back though. You will be twice as strong this time around. Sounds like you learned the hard way you can’t just have one. I had to do the same thing. Us addicts are stubborn as hell and it’s always all or nothing.
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Agree! Speeches are useless… if your here, you don’t need a speech. Keep it up @VSue we all have been there and go there. Keep up the fight!
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My thoughts exactly. Sorry @VSue! We are here for you and I’m glad you shared with us.
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Can I ask @VSue what made you decide on drink 1? I reread your post and only ask because you said it was a conscious choice.
I have no idea. I have been really good at telling that voice to duck off but for some reason today it was fuck it.
But I am now mad and I’m back to fuck off.
Yesterday my attitude was “it is what it is” but today…damn it I am MAD at myself. It wasn’t a huge relapse so now I wonder if it was “worth it” to now see myself in “hours” rather than “days”, “weeks”, and even “month”.
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