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Hi! I’m Anne! Maybe some of you remember me. Im doing this again, the right way. On November 1st something happened. A fight between my husband and I, not just a fight, but a big fight, and I was done! Not with him, but with the disgusting and toxic cycle we were in, drinking every single day, and on the weekends, ALL DAY.

SO, I packed his bags and sent him to his parents house. We couldn’t/can’t get sober togrther, we have tried before, and it didn’t work, we needed to start this journey separately, so we don’t enable each other to go back to that shit show we were in. We are currently both 18 days sober, cold turkey. Doing counseling, we both have sponsors, the whole shebang.

I hid it from everyone, the drinking. My co workers were shocked when I told them. I work in an elementary school as a SpEd para (and no I absolutely NEVER went to work drunk, or drank at work, EVER) I was obviously embarrassed but I felt I needed to be honest with everyone, including my close coworkers. Everyone has been super supportive.

It’s been very emotional, I have put every feeling, thought, grievance out in the open to everyone involved. I want to be as transparent and open as possible, or this would just never work. So I’m just here to post my foodie pics again, chat with people, read other people’s stories, laugh with people, support others, and just chill. :slight_smile:

Thanks for having me…again, again, again. :sweat_smile::heart_hands:t2::rainbow:

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Congratulations to both of you @Annedizzle !
Sounds like the plan that you have is working out! That’s great especially going into a holiday if you’re in the United States. Into the ‘every day’ wherever you are.
Regardless, i’m going to post a link to one of our more popular posts in case you didn’t see it.

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Thank you, Alisa! We are in the states, and yes holidays coming up! I am really happy with where I am right now. I had a MISERABLE first 3 days, I couldn’t eat, I couldn’t sleep, I threw up(more like dry heaved) every 20 minutes, I cried so much I don’t even know how I conjured up tears after a while, I took time off work, because there was no way on this planet I could have been there…and then all a sudden I just felt free. SO FAR I haven’t thought ONCE about drinking and to be honest, not craved it either. I’m grateful, and I just hope I continue with this same momentum, from now, until forever. Honestly don’t even like drinking, I don’t know why I kept doing it, I mean I know why, it was a habit and an addiction whether I liked it or not. My kids deserve their parents to be happy and healthy, and I deserve it as well. Thanks for your comments, I appreciate them, and you.

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Sometimes there comes a time where people are just done and realize that it’s not what they want. That is a huge motivator and help, when you quit fighting it so much, also a good reminder that just one could take all that away, because as you said, it’s a bad habit and an addiction.
I hope that your husband will also get to that place, with you, and for you, and for himself, and for your children. For your family.

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