Ok so it’s 01:39 am and here I am again up too late 
I’ve started noticing today my behaviour s and reaction s . I’ve just got out of bed after 2 hours in it and ate a kit-kat and had a fag. now I know it’s only a kit-kat and a fag but ,1 I’m not really a sweet eater the only chocolate bar I have has been in the fridge for a week, and 2 when I’ve gone to bed I don’t get up again and smoke now thay I’m sober .I am now looking into things deeply( in a good way ) if I’d have gone to sleep by twelve I wouldn’t of wanted either but my addiction for smoking wouldn’t stop head Fuckin me untill I’d given in ,and I’m sure the chocolate was like “well fags are nicer after food” . I’ve noticed how much tiredness plays a big part in the bad decisions I make (I can’t seem to do the next right thing without giving in to it ) . I must be really mindful of sleep.I’m now off to get some AND I’ll be able to as my addict brain has now won the battle 
ffs. advice please I’ll check back in the morning .tia love to all 
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