Behind this door (this topic) is a gift from everyone to everyone

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Behind is a gift from us to us
Only from everyone to everyone

It is .. everything
Choose wisley what to do with it

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On another topic i did loads of crack but i dont anymore

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I would give it to the Lord Jesus Christ, cause he would know what to do.

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I would give it to the Lord Jesus Christ, I wouldn’t know what to do with it.

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Thanks my friend

What i mean by the first post is everything in life is within arms reach.

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Ohh okay, nice, I thought it was like a question. Hey I tried..

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You did exactly what i needed someone to help with

You made a comment to a thred to help understand what i meant. You already did more then anyone else to help me out.

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  1. Reflection: Carefully looking back on or considering past events and ideas.
  2. Pondering: Turning a complex problem or idea over in your mind.
  3. Rumination: Deeply and repeatedly thinking about a subject.
    I was quickly pondering and ruminating about the that first post. (:laughing:)
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I like you :slight_smile:

Your nice
Im nice too but its being robbed from me by everyone in my life robbing my decisions.

Im usually happy go lucky and love people.
Now after being treated the way i have been by absolutely everyone in my life my forcing me to feel wrong about EVERYTHING is kinda turning me into a azz but i still love people.

This sounds exaggerated but everyone i talk to besides the family where i live are called my “work” buddies or “sobertime” buddies in a rude manner only brought up to push me down

I have bent so much im not doing it anymore.
Ill fight for myself every step of the way

They robbed me of my peace so i robbed everyone of their control just over me.

I tell them i choose to be here
I choose to do the good things i do because i have a good heart

I also could choose to be a dead beat dad with 0 responsiblitys.

I told them if i dont think its worth fighting for, im gone. Not even with family accross the country. Ill get right in the street, find a new job, get my azz insurance and continue all from 0. Bet your azz ill stay sober

My life savings will be not taken once sonever but givin. All i have is my wallet and seltzer maker. And clothes. That is it

I have what they want to let me have
I coose to drink up the privilege to the point i spend too much, but this is because i dont have any freedom. Only what im told i can do.

My friend im being forced to feel miserable
And i absolutely hate feeling miserable. I see everything. No1 can say what i feel emotionally is not real or valid. Even though i have to constantly fight for my own freedom but i constantly learn. I hate feeling miserable.

I can explain
Just ask away

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How are you doing @Noshame you seem to be riled up

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Can i ask you 2 questions be4 i answer

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Sure. Hit me

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Question 1
was what country your from
I saw USA
Im also USA born and raised

Second question

What was sticking out that made you think i was rilled up

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Yep usa.

Just concerned. You talked about being robbed of your decisions…that you could chose to be a deadbeat dad …youre being forced to feel miserable

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Yes i was slowly getting to a boiling point

I could choose to be a deadbeat dad
If i get kicked out or even walk away, my next choice is made on the opened road
To be clear ill say to you like ive been explaining to everyone more then 100times each i have a good heart. I wouldnt choose to be a deadbeat dad because it.. just not in me. Its gross to think about

Im being forced to feel miserable by being robbed of my freedom of choice. Not just my free countries right but my god given right. Im not stupid and i will always have a choice
Let me add i have a good heart.

I shouldnt be downed for buying diapers for my 2 year old. My intelligence is enough to know what will fit him and know what he wont take off.

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I think life is still going to give us those situations in life, it’s just better that we are sober. Soberity helps us see through the BS and see the bigger picture, I think. Things can get a lot worse than people think, Never stop striving. People will complain about everything if they can not realizing it could be worse. I think we should start appreciating people more, and being thankful.

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I feel better and just had a long tough talk with my wifey

Turnes out we have been fighting over what we think is the fact but we are actually both completely wrong.

My wifes whole life she was never to be believed about her emotions

My whole life i was never belived to have a say

We got mad at eachother because
She didnt think i understood her emotions because of our past
And i didnt think she thought i made sence
And the kicker is we both believed eachother, but we personally believed we each didnt. We ligit didnt believed we we each were heard correctly.

We both battle mental heath
And we both had a very tough relationship with family growing up

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