Hi everyone, I’m new here. I have never joined a forum like this, but I really needed to talk to someone who understands the pain, and guilt, and anxiety I feel because of my problem.
Anyways, just a little bit about me. I’m a 36, work-from-home, single mother, and have been binge drinking for about 10 years or so? I drink once a week, and sometimes once every two weeks? I don’t know when to stop drinking, and will only stop when I have passed out, or I cannot obtain the alcohol for whatever reason.
You are probably wondering now how old my child is, and how is he health wise? Well, with all that drinking, can you believe during my whole pregnancy I did not drink? Though there were days I wanted to very badly, but didn’t.
Anyways, of course with all this drinking, of course I have gotten in trouble with the law. I have two duis because of my drinking problem.
I don’t know what else to do, to stop this problem, but the only thing I can think of is to do a complete life style change, where I will have to change more about myself than the drinking.
Anyways, I can’t describe enough in words the pain and guilt I feel each time I let someone down, or end up hurting someone that I care about because of my problem. I’ve lost so many friends, and even family members due to this problem. And I fear that one day I may lose everyone. Is there anyone hear that can relate to me, and give any advice?