Hello everyone
I was catching up with messages here. I was busy moving the house and so I haven’t been here for a while.
I feel very happy now, finally my partner Sean and I moved the house and I suddenly gain so much freedom and got rid of lots of stress!!!
My life is so different now when we have our own place where we both live alone
Every day I appreciate how easy my life suddenly became and I feel no anger and all the other ugly feelings I used to feel in every single day at the other place. It’s like if it stayed in there
Eating wise, I don’t even know. I think I over ate yesterday, but maybe it was binge? I can’t tell the difference. I only know that I don’t feel good about the way I eat But I am so happy that I decided to ignore my bad eating habits for a while. It was difficult also because I was very much out of my routine with moving the house and I hope to get slowly back to it now when we’re finally here and did all the biggest jobs which were needed to be done.
I still need to unpack lots of boxes and we’ll be decorating at some point soon, but that should be fine.
I hope to be back here a bit more too now
@Misokatsu There are always going to be days where I feel like I am going backwards instead of forward. But it’s the forward steps that count in the end I believe. @Jana1988 Congrats on finally moving out! Getting back into routines takes time.
@Jana1988 yay for moving in even better that you’re feeling much happier already @acromouse congrats on 80 days no gluten or dairy
111 days no takeaways.
107 days no ice cream.
35 days no crisps, no binge-eating.
9 days no sugar.
Yesterday I made it to 8pm without going to the shop. Today I’ve already been. I willl eventually conquer this addiction, because I won’t stop trying until I do.
I often think that it may be that for some time while we are already doing the work of unearthing and bringing light to our pains and wishes, the soothing behaviour that is addiction still is functional and needed. Alcohol prevented me from going even more mad, having even less of a life and let me temporarily be in a bit less in pain when I was drinking. And it stopped when I had enough traction and somehow hope that I could do without. And I have. But I still soothe and treat and numb myself in smaller, a lot less harmful ways. The shop thing might be a case of the lesser evil. If it doesn’t lead to binges, and the consequences are manageable (which is in no way for me to say and I have heard you say re the financial and weight gain aspects), maybe there is a way to create an acceptable medium between the loss of control and danger that are binges, utter dissociation, and idk the fantasy of a fully conscious, fully controlled life. Which is imho a fantasy.
Just a thought and Cam, I see a lot of progress and work you’re doing and it’s great, albeit mixed w the hardships and discontentments that you have which I alos notice and I think it’s right of you to acknowledge them too. Full support!
@Aleyadaisey thank you @acromouse it’s not really a bingeing problem, more of a food addiction to strawberries and greek yoghurt. I’m eating batches of them daily, and it has all the same mental feelings of my other addictions, and I haven’t been able to stop since I first tried them. I’m spending way more than I can afford to too, because I keep buying other items as well each time, so my savings are taking a hit. @Faugxh thank you it is definitely a lesser evil but yes, I am also gaining weight with all the other stuff I’m eating. I’m now 18st and I’m only 5ft4.
112 days no takeaways.
108 days no ice cream.
36 days no crisps, no binge-eating.
10 days no sugar.
I haven’t been to the shop today so far so hopefully this will be day 1
Today is my walk with the Safe Soulmates volunteer at my favourite nature place. Will feed the water birds again.
113 days no takeaways.
109 days no ice cream.
37 days no crisps, no binge-eating.
11 days no sugar.
2 days no compulsive eating.
I’m wanting so badly to go to the shop. Thinking typical thoughts like, if I “only bought …” it would be okay, but I’ve gone to the shop on that promise many times before, and I invariably buy all of the same things, and recently even more, (since I wasn’t restricting), so I know I should not go, but ugh!
On top of alcohol I have also not been kind to my body diet wise. I’ve been here before, hit a ferocious low, but I’m back. Back to porridge, home made dinners and home made soups and so on for lunch in work. I do get my one take away a week, but I try and stretch it out to 8 or 9 days so I somewhat feel like I’m getting my treat. Back to water, walking, veggies and meat as I’m trying to cut out as much processed foods as possible.
Thank you, @Alisa I’m certainly living a dream now. I’m so much stress free since we moved - unbelievable… What will I be complaining about now when all is left is relief and happiness
I’m slowly settling down in my new house (which I love to bits btw) and so I thought that it’s time again to concentrate on my eating habits and binging issue.
Living at new place brought peace in my mind and I miss nothing at all in my life Hence I shall be fine with eating, shouldn’t I? When there’s nothing to ‘eat away’, I don’t need to numb, or distract my feelings, do I?
I can make myself busier with all the responsibilities which my new lifestyle brings. I.g. nobody is going to be shopping for me anymore, or I need to be cleaning much bigger space than one room. I still need to unpack a fair enough amount of boxes, too and sort out where everything goes (which I actually enjoy). No time for boredom!
I binged yesterday (not a big time though) so I’m aiming for a fresh start today And my work starts now, here with this thread.
@PaddyMan2024 Welcome to the thread. We love long shares here
Meal planning and home made cooking are essential for me too. If I have my meals planned, I know what ingredients I need. Then I know what I need to put on my shopping list. At the shop I know what I need to buy, and I don’t run around putting stuff into my basket I don’t need. At home I know what to cook and what to eat. It’s a nice chain effect here. Becomes a habit after a while and then it basically becomes second nature. @Jana1988 Welcome back to a new start with a much better environment for your endevour.
Coming back, ashamed, with my head down. I was telling myself I’m gonna post here when I will have few days under my belt already but I can’t even get to day 2 lately. So here I am, on day zero.
Plan is - no bingeing, avoid upf, eat more greens and veggies.
But I am so happy that I decided to ignore my bad eating habits for a while. It was difficult also because I was very much out of my routine with moving the house and I hope to get slowly back to it now when we’re finally here and did all the biggest jobs which were needed to be done.
Getting back into routines takes time.
even better that you’re feeling much happier already 
I willl eventually conquer this addiction, because I won’t stop trying until I do.
and happy first autumn day 
(which I love to bits btw) and so I thought that it’s time again to concentrate on my eating habits and binging issue.