That sounds very nice 
Glad you both got to enjoy it 
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2.5 months without binging
How awesome life is when there is no binging. 2.5 months ago, I didnāt think itās possible for me. I felt controlled by food, my brain was overwhelmed by thoughts about food, my mind was torn in two by the constant dialog between what is right and what is wrong, what I should and what I shouldnāt do.. I felt powerless, trapped, desperate and exhausted. I felt like this is going to be my life forever - a constant battle with food.
Then I entered a therapy. I already recovered from bulimia before thanks to a therapy, so I put all my hope into this again. It took my absolute devotion to the extend when I was following instructions and doing things which were against my beliefs. I knew I need to enter this with an opened mind and do as I am told. In the end, it was me asking for help, so I should as well take it when given to me. No, it wasnāt easy (at least not at the beginning) to do things I believed arenāt for me. I said to myself that I can always go to my old habits after the therapy finishes, if I still feel like it. That helped me to continue and walk the path despite my thoughs. Or rather thoughts of my eating disorder. I learnt to distinguish thoughts even better. There are many in my head but not all belong to me. Thanks to God! 
Today, I am already at very happy place, I am enjoying what I have achieved and trying to get even better with the tools given to me by the therapy. I am utterly grateful that I have undertook it and completed it.
Happy Thursday everyone 
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Congratulations Jana, well done! You gave yourself an enormous gift to choose this path.
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How did you do, Dana? Did you have a nice afternoon and evening?
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Thank you for checking in in me 
So of course last night i was rushed getting us ready for Volt Hockey. And I didnt plan accordingly. So i grabbed a meal replacement shake from the fridge and drank that at Volt hockey instead. It did take the hunger pains away which was good as I was beginning to feel sick.
Earlier, I had taken out some beef to make supper once home. But while on the way home my husband suggested we order out instead as supper would be too late after having to make it. And I said sure. We got pizza and parmesan bites. Once home, I grabbed 3 slices and some parm bites. I ate the parm bites but only ate 2 slices of pizza as I was full. I feel bad for eating pizza. Its a yellow food for me (once in a while and in moderation type of food). The sodium content was horrendous! And i just feel like I couldve said no to my husbands suggestion about ordering out. Idk. I dont think I binged or overate. But i did eat extremely fast as I was hungry once home. What do u think? Honestly. Im not sure if I engaged in disordered eating or not. I feel like the ālineā is blurry lol
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Totally blurry lines, I agree!
For me, faster eating and medium good food choices are not disordered eating. Itās in my yellow circle: behaviour that will lead to disordered eating, IF I do it regularly. Not disordered at all, if I do it now and then.
I really think you can give yourself some kind applause:
- For taking that shake with you and protect yourself from starving.
- For making your evening easier with take-out (which IS an act of self-love!)
- For not binging.
- For being flexible enough and stable enough to make an exception with the pizza and then turn back to other food choices.
- For being there, everyday, reflecting and trying out what works.
Hugs, friend!
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187 days smoke free,
50 binge free,
4 keto
I messed with counting my days, but Iām on the right track again after checking my counters 
I feel more stable again in my eating habits. Keto diet is helping a lot. Carb foods are not generally bad at all, but for me, they are trigger foods. I need to accept, that I can have them only in very little amounts.
My partner is suffering from a heavy depressive episode. Heās fighting it and I am proud of him, how brave heās facing his condition. For me, it means I do the best I can to be there for him.
I am grateful he is letting me help him a little. He has been a loner for a long time (like myself), so heās not used to share his weaker moments.
Have a peaceful day, everyone 
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Sorry to hear about your partners depression. Thatās not easy for you too. Takes a lot of time to recover mostly. Strength for both of you 
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Day 1976 : No binge today.
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Yesterday was a white knuckling day. But I did not snack. Today was better. Day almost over.
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Personally, I wouldnāt call this binging. Eating fast because you are starving is different to eating fast because you are doing addictive behaviour. Also, stopping eating when you are full (not stuffed) is mindful eating. It was imperfect (i e. not what you would have planned) eating, which is not the same as disordered eating. Aiming for constant perfect eating is another form of disordered eating in itself (Iām not saying you are doing this, just pointing it out). I think you were flexible and did a great job in challenging circumstances.
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Day 1977 : No binge today.
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I second all this, @Misokatsu. I would also not beat myself up about the pizza, especially when you didnāt binge on it, @Butterflymoonwoman . By what youāre saying, you had a normal amount of food which you just ate quickly, so maybe it felt like too much. But feelings donāt always reflect the reality.
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@Butterflymoonwoman
Dana, how are you doing? Thinking of you, love
189 smoke free
52 binge free
6 keto
I am really glad keto is going well again. Itās helpful for me when the food I am eating doesnāt cause mood swings.
TW: Wegovy/semaglutid
I started taking wegovy some days ago. Itās supposed to help me with my high blood pressure and insulin resistance. I was sceptical for a long time, but now Iām giving it a try. My gynecologist suggested it.
I donāt notice any negative side effects. My blood pressure already got lower because of the keto/semaglutid combo.
Wegovy reduces my urges to eat out of emotional reasons and the food noise. Maybe this is how people with no disordered eating feel?
I feel like a cheater. But I know Iām not, I am just accepting help for some weeks (1-3 months max.) I will still be focused on my keto, healthy food choices, moving my body, feeling my feelings and reflecting my thought.
Have a peaceful day, everyone
I googled it, didnāt know what it was. Itās something to be grateful for, that it exists for people who need it. Sure youāre not a cheater! I hope that it will be a great help for you!
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@DanielaJ If taking meds is cheating, then we are all cheaters from before we are born.
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