I’m wondering if anyone using this app has Borderline Personality Disorder and struggles with substance abuse.
After having a couple of mental health stays, going to rehab, and managing to scrape together a year of sobriety, I’m only now aware that I have BPD. It went misdiagnosed for a long time, but, of course, the more sober I got, the more evident it was that alcohol was just something I used as a bandaid, and wasn’t the actual wound.
I want so badly to be a supportive, reliable, and stable person, able to care for both myself and the people in my life. The cycles that accompany both the disorder as well as the addiction are so damaging, and I truly desire to be sober, both emotionally and physically.
The more research I do, the more I read how nuanced and challenging it is to overcome both of these issues, but I have hope, and am reaching out to see if anyone has similar experiences, and to hear what has helped you on your journey to become aware of both yourself and the world around you.
Much love to all the folks out there putting in the hard work every day. We’re in this together.