Brand new here

Just downloaded the app 2 days ago and already had to reset. I live in a town too small even for AA meetings. I’m just sick of this whole routine of getting drunk to self medicate and all of the crap that comes with it.

I know it’s beyond time to stop, but I can’t shut off that taunting voice in my head. Any advice

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Get AA big book and start reading, lots of good stuff there. Get out of yourselves. Addiction thrives in isolation

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me too im brand new to this app. hope u are doing good. keep asking for help when u need it. i keep u in my prays

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Welcome! This place is wonderful. This is the longest I gave been sober, part of it is due to this place. That voice is horrible. I stay busy, i even talk back to tgat damn voice

I got this app 20 days ago and i’m 19 days sober now! You can do it too! Read the posts and the stories as often as you can. You will see, you are not alone. I can relate to you a lot, I used to “automedicate” myself with alcohol for years because of my anxiety and depression and my self estime went down so low now that my only choice is to never take that 1 glass anymore, and I’m actally doing pretty good, one day at the time. Stay with us, we understand you!
Have a good day!

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Hi everybody? Today is day 276 without a drink for me. I too am brand new here. I am thankful for all of you, for this app and for my higher power, without whom I would be drunk and dieing, if not already dead. In the deepest part of my being, I truly never want to drink again. I am working the steps. I listen daily to successfully recovering AA’s and try every day to be the embodiment of the principals outlined in the Big Book of Alcoholics Anonymous. And for 276 I haven’t let a single drop of hooch past my lips or into my body. This is in my case nothing short of miraculous and proof positive of God’s grace to me. I have not yet begun to really enjoy sobriety however. I think it’s because I’m too busy not drinking with all my might. I’ve developed “dry polor disorder”, self diagnosed lol. I’m reaching out to those of you in this forum who have felt as I do now, but have worked their way through to the other side of this white knuckled, dry but not yet in sobriety period of recovery. I’m hoping to hear from those of you who know how I can get from this place, not drinking with all my might, to the one where I begin to experience the promises described in our literature. Please share with me how you turned not drinking into being happy, joyous and free. Thank you.
Kellie - alcoholic

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I’m new here as well. My name is Josh and my recent drug of choice was benzedrex. I’m starting rehab today and I’m on day 2 of sobriety. I had almost 9 months under my belt but I got lazy and complacent and let my addictive thinking lead me down that road again.

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Welcome to the board. It is a great tool but it sounds like you are trying to find more as well. I don’t know where you live or how you define your town. But I live in rural Kansas. When I tell you small town it’s small! And I found an AA meeting here. But I will also travel for my recovery. My theory is if I work as hard at recovery as I did at be a drunk maybe I will make it? I know counties of 3000 people not a town an entire county that have meetings. When I do travel I will go anywhere from 35 miles to 127 miles to get a meeting in. And I’ll be honest I travel because I have made some friends at those meetings and want to see them. Oh and my road trips I’m looking at the wheat breaking dormancy and the row crop starting to emerge. So google Meetings around you and go for a visit. Best wishes.

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Thanks. I live in the middle of Michigan in a town with a pop. of around 900. I don’t have a car and have tried to Google meetings in my area with out any luck.

Thank you @Milpak! That’s my problem too is anxiety and depression. I appreciate you reaching out. You have a good day too!

I talk back to the voice too. I try to stay busy with hobbies. Living in the mitten can be tough ha ha.

Where in the mitte are you…i am in the palm…lol

I’m in the palm too. Right in the middle just about.

Practically neighbors!

@ScentlessApprentice1 try this link. I’m not sure if it’s your area, but if you call the number they can probably direct you to the proper website.

http://www.cmia32.org/

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I would try to call the area hotline number. They might have resources for you. As in a member drives through your town to attend meeting “A”. I don’t know if you would feel comfortable getting a ride but it might get you to a room full of people ready to help when they can. I know I replied to your post englishd but it was feeding off yours.

My intergroup actually has a committee that does Skype meetings with people in foreign countries who don’t have access to meetings.