Sober for 110 days here. I dropped out if out patient because I didn’t feel like it was helping me. I know and understand if I do not actively participate in my Recovery, I will be active towards relapsing and that just isn’t an optio for me.
I have a 14 year old daughter that depends on me as a single mom. I have to be out if my apartment by Halloween, so I asked my mom if she could stay with her until I got back on my feet. Well, one month in and tempers are high at my mom’s house, she keeps threatening to kick my kid out about grades, knowing damn well I will be homeless in two weeks
I have tried to take a break everyday and talk myself up, and be proud of my progress, but I still feel so weak, and there are GIANT obstacles to overcome. I ended up getting a virus then a head cold that I am still recovering from, which doesn’t help when you have the new pains of a sober addict. Not being able to control the pain I feel, or my emotions is getting the better of me. It’s overwhelming and makes me want to just give up and go back down the rabbit hole
I really wanted a sponsor after coming out of an inpatient facility back in August, but the meetings I have tried around town didn’t really produce much I have some phone numbers from women I was in inpatient with, but I’m hesitant because they are so freshly sober.
So I’m reaching out here. An accountability buddy maybe? Internet sponsor? I dunno…
I just know it’s so easy to slip into old ways, especially when there doesn’t seem to be an end to the neverending mountain of debt and bills I have acquired over my addiction, as well as a body that can no longer tolerate even the smallest ounce of pain.
Thanks for listening Gonna hit the pillow. One more day won! “I can do HARD things!” “We can do hard things”
Maybe check in every day on the checking in thread, when you are facing something that you should not have asking post about it and you will receive some responses, there are online meetings on constantly around the world. There is so much knowledge contained within the pages here, I have gained much of mine from just sitting here reading for hours on end. Whether you will get an online sponsor here I’m not sure but there are thousands of us here to help.
Glad you’re here. Sleep well and know this place is a good spot for support. I like in person meetings as it is just more real feeling to me and there’s folks who will work with me and that I can help too. Not to mention the phone list we can ask for… men-men, ladies-ladies, but you know that shit.
Accountability is key, being active daily in our recovery is a must or we easily slip backwards into our old thinking, and often.
You have a copy of the basic text? Big Book? It all helps, sure as hell won’t hurt us. Not like we already have. Hugs to ya & just know you’re not alone and never will be on this journey.
I even went to eat at a bar with a friend and wasn’t tempted to drink in the slightest! I walked away feeling so proud of myself. I kicked butt in darts, and had an amazing time SOBER, for the first time in 20 years!
Everyday is still a struggle, but the hard days seem to be getting to be fewer and fewer. So I’m grateful for that. I have finally recovered from the flu and then a head cold and I honestly feel so good. Everyday my hope for the future builds, something that I had seemed to have lost while I was heavy in my addiction.
Thank you for the kind words. I do have a copy of the big book, and I try to read a story from it, and my Bible daily. The day I got sober was the day I repented to Jesus and asked him to take control of my life and I haven’t looked back!!! It’s so nice to not be controlled by something so horrible, and I don’t miss waking up dope sick every morning
Still looking for housing, but some options are opening up, and for that I am so grateful.
Stay strong my brothers and sisters in recovery! I CAN DO HARD THINGS! YOU CAN DO HARD THINGS! WE CAN DO HARD THINGS Till next time…
We can certainly do hard things. If one day at a time is too much try one minute or moment if any of that feels to much scream whatever you need
Sending you love through this hardship that is the pathway to better days 🫶🏿 You got this !!!🫶🏿
Gonna hit the pillow. One more day won! “I can do HARD things!” “We can do hard things”