65 Days: The last few days I’ve fallen into the trap of thinking “big picture” and “long term” both daunting and overwhelming. Both having a profound effect on my over all well being.
Ironic because a few days before this I had a great day just focusing on keeping things simple and how much easier life is when I take that attitude.
Reality is I have to do both. I need to keep things simple, but stay focused on big picture of why i chose sobriety. I want to be happy and to be in control of my life.
I can’t fix my problems (insecurities, emotional issues, taxes, debt, relationships, you name it) overnight, but I can start to fix me.
In order to take on my big picture issues I need to be healthy mentally and physically. I can only do that one day at a time.
So today I joined two new gyms and committed to working out with my son at one, something I’ve always wanted to do, but was too drunk to do it, and the other to work out with guys from my work. Accountability is a huge motivator for me.
Committed to attend two AA meetings a week, something I definitely have the time to do, but always make excuses not to. And finally turning off the TV and opening books and stimulating this warped brain of mine.
These are simple things I can do and need to do, every day, in order to get me into the physical and mental shape I need to be in to overcome the other problems my alcoholic life has created.
I couldn’t be here without the support of this sober community. I truly mean that, so thank you.
Congrats on 65 days Chris @Hidden first months are about motivation and determination. Keep on trucking. I’m so happy to hear you will give AA meetings a chance. I had million excuses and obstacles at my early days not to go and still have “force majeures” to fight. Just every time I go there I come back a little more calmer, happier, connected and recovered, but as there is no way to stock it I will have to keep going there frequently for the rest of my life (unless I choose to be ruled by my throughout addictive mind/behaviour). I have no control over my life, that’s an illusion I’ve only started to realise and give up. I actually feel better when I don’t,I’m sick & tired of being a walking control panel
Day 2. So proud got through day 1. I felt so rough yesterday drom alcohol day before. Where i would normally do hair of dog. Did wake up through night but did a sobriety medidation.
How are you feeling today Conor? I hope better!
Congratulations with your 160 days!!
Try not to think that far ahead @Anglesea, like you said yourself: one day at a time. Next summer you have much more sober days under your belt (I hope) so you are much stronger then today
Already have congratulate you, but haven’t seen your chip. Nice chip @Spangster89!!
I’m not in AA myself, but love those chips. So when I hit my 1 year milestone I bought one
Congratulations for you too @Serenity412
Day 492
Whoop! Whoop! Today is the day of my second tattoo session. My 1 year sober back tattoo will be finished today! So I have a 5 houres tattoo session ahead, mostly at my spine
Tonight I’m going to laugh about it
It’s a bit like getting sober: it’s hard work and I earn every minute of it!! So it will be with my tattoo.
Have a great day TS people!
You can do a lot more then you think, remember that!!
Back to work today too @Hailstrom. Just a daytime meeting and two late shifts to get through before my three day weekend starts. I can do that. I can work on my life too but I feel I need to make some choices. I can’t do it all at the same time. I notice how other people’s opinions and ways to go about things influence me too much maybe. Weighing all options is good but I need to have my own approach. Have my own plan and stick to it. My sobriety feels pretty strong. It’s the rest of my life that doesn’t.
I had a great long walk yesterday. It is good for me both physically and mentally. Yet it take so much time. Afterwards I was so tired I only hung around. Another day gone. Well, it wasn’t wasted with drinking or drugging. Nor was I missing it or craving for it. That’s a gain made right. Now to move forward. Have a good day all! Love from Amsterdam and Zunderdorp. @Hidden Thank you friend. We do this together. Your post resonates. @SoberWalker Enjoy your session Claudia!
Well done for getting to your first smart meeting, it does sound like this meeting might be just starting up. You could contact the facilitator thier number should be on smart website and ask them about any concerns you have. The format to our meetings is somewhat differant in that we respond to the needs of the group and work through things that arise.
I have done a couple of online meetings and they seem very well organised and structured… so that may suit you better.
My advice would be give it another go, and try an online one too. Keep giving things ago untill you find one that works. SMART also have so great free online training I can direct you to and there is a handbook you can by for £9 to gain deeper understanding of the principles. @Robketts and @RedDragon are long standing Smart attendees with much more knowledge than me. Saying that if you ever have any questions feel free to ask me as finding out the answers together will be great for my facilitator training. Xx
@C_8 and @Hazy thank you!!! Day 2 sober . Sponsor encourage me to do a retreat and do more prayer time!! And never ever being discouraged although little by little I am discovering how many defects and flaws and sins I have. @Hazy I will check the book
first months are about motivation and determination. Keep on trucking. I’m so happy to hear you will give AA meetings a chance. I had million excuses and obstacles at my early days not to go and still have “force majeures” to fight. Just every time I go there I come back a little more calmer, happier, connected and recovered, but as there is no way to stock it I will have to keep going there frequently for the rest of my life (unless I choose to be ruled by my throughout addictive mind/behaviour). I have no control over my life, that’s an illusion I’ve only started to realise and give up. I actually feel better when I don’t,I’m sick & tired of being a walking control panel 
