Thank you 
- Finally slept in again. Immediately I feel a lot better. Dreamt I took a small ferry from a port in Holland to a non-existent island where I walked into a conference of teachers for special needs and read some promotion material. Hm. I have been thinking about another career switch. Anyways, coffee and TS now. I’m good. I’m sober & clean. The sun is out. Some chores to do but otherwise I feel free in a whole lot of senses. Love to be sober and clean. Have a great sober day all! Love from Amsterdam.
@WannaBeSoberMom congrats on a week sober! That’s huge! @Joy 60 days yeah! Proud of you lady. @Frank68 18 months is awesome. Congrats Frank excellent work. @KevinesKay Hang in there friend. Good you are here.
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Congratulations on your 1st week!
It doesn’t sound silly at all, I know how important the first week can be. It looks like a small step but its a huge step forward.
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Day 108 really quick flying visit from sunny North Wales, love love love sober holidays and peaceful sea air. 
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You ok Kevin? Hopefully you’ve gone to bed!
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This is great to see. You can be extremely proud of yourself.
Day 27…I’m having a really tough one today. There are So many things that I feel I need to change now that I am healing… I want to do them all at once and it’s really causing me massive anxiety not being able to. I understand that I can’t do everything at once, so I decided to start one thing at a time… There has been so many people in the last 16 years whom I loved dearly that have all died… Mum,dad, stepdad, nephew and on and on and on…finally my little sister (2 years younger) killed her self two years ago 
…she was a single parent and left my nephew 17 and niece 13 behind! It’s taken me nearly all the two years to pick up all of the pieces for them, whilst I now realise I was doing by drinking myself numb…(hope that makes sense?)…In all of this time I seem to have acquired everybody else’s memories! Photos, diaries,possessions… Lots and lots of stuff! I decided this morning that I would open the wardrobe containing most of the stuff and go through it, rid anything that doesn’t impact on my memories… MY CHRIST THIS IS HARD!!! I know I have to do this as it’s holding me back…hope I survive this hurdle 
… thanks for listening 
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Joy, Congratulations on reaching 2 months. So happy for you! 
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You are doing a terrific job Blondie. Not the least thing being here, sharing and being accountable. One day at a time friend. Just as one step at a time and one memory at a time. Healing is hard work. But necessary work if we are to heal and recover. You are putting in the hard work. Be very proud. I am of you. You are not alone as we are all in this together. Big hugs.
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Day 43. Had a drinking dream last night and was so disappointed in myself (in the dream). Woke up relieved I didnt have to restart my clock.
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In AA, we are advised to not clean the whole kitchen, but to just tackle one drawer. Maybe you can limit yourself to just one hour with the wardrobe and give yourself permission to do the rest another time.
I feel for your losses. I know that my friends and family who have died are still close to me and available. While grief was sharp for a while, the knowledge that they are near is a comfort and a source of joy to me. 
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@WannaBeSoberMom This put a huge smile on my face! Well done, you!
@KevinesKay We are here for you, friend. I hope your burden is lifted. 
@Blondie1x That is a lot of loss and grief to bear. I’m so sorry. If you feel you can’t manage sorting through things, leave it for another time. I still haven’t done anything with my son’s things after a year, though I tell myself I ‘should’.
@Joy Congratulations! 60 days!!!
Day 191 here.
Knee pain is keeping down to a dull roar, as my dad would say. Still can’t bend it, still wearing a brace, even to bed, out of fear. But sleeping more comfortably and can do small things around the apartment. As long as a I don’t think about how effing depressing this actually is, I don’t get too depressed. Funny, that.
Have a safe, strong, sober Sunday!!
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Day 4 in the books. Feeling good but wife is handing out emotional consequences as often as she can. Painful
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11 months today 
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@Blondie1x thank you for sharing . My first thought was, “wow…that is so much grief for one person to carry”. I’m so sorry you’ve had such loss! Sounds like you are beginning to take steps in peeling back the layers - be patient with yourself! No matter how long you’ve put it off or numbed with substances, it’s still going to hurt. So take your time, breathe deep, and commit to being present. If you need to step away, do it. As you’ve learned, that stuff and your feelings about it aren’t going anywhere.
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@SoberWalker - Oh Buts, I am so sorry you are in such pain. You can and should vent here any time you want. Sending you vibes for good health.
@Fireweed - you guys, if there is a TS get together in Helsinki, I’m there. I’ve got some amends that I need to make in London and Berlin - I don’t know if I will be ready to do so by then, but who knows! And Hanna - 11 months!!! I am right behind ya, my dear friend.
@Kipper - hope run goes ok!
@KevinesKay - sometimes we can’t control the first thought, but we can control the second and the action. You are doing well with staying true to your values in the face of challenging thoughts. Your success is my success.
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That would be so great to have u here too.!! Although the intimate candle light dinner by me and dan @Dejavu is threatened 
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Day 14 sober. I went to the Church and I celebrated my two weeks sober. I feel grateful and joyful 
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Congratulations on the 14 days @Bomdhil.
I’ve taken for granted the awesomeness of going to church sober. It’s a great gift.
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