Yeah I understand. A big tattoo sounds like a nice present for you achievement, and it reminds you of staying sober.
But it also gone give you more back pain 
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But this time it will be pain with a result instead of pain for nothing 
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Day 2. Despite it feeling different and me having the tools to accomplish it, I still found myself thinking about ways I could secretly buy beers and I’m ashamed to say (but now weirdly empowered by the honesty) that when I was left in the kitchen by myself, I nearly grabbed the bottle of pimms for a quick chug. This moment, now I didnt act on it, really made me realise the extent of the problem, and brought it all together why I’m here. As I said yesterday, I have my negative visualisation for motivation through fear just enough to jolt me out of these sickening impulses and instead of being negative constantly I can then replaced them with the positive alternative of productivity and vitality. Still feel amazing. Starting new job today, off to the gym and swim for 3 hours before to really springboard into being awesome me again when I was a young lad
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Day 311…the days just slip past, ups and downs …but all sober and clean , have a great day in recovery guys 
, and buts not long now (7 days my friend …its a new milestone ,everything happens for a reason )
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It’s normal to have feelings about secretly drinking, I know I had them! But talking about it helps! Addiction florish with secrets! So tell others about it (like your partner?)
And what helped me is to keep all alcohol out of my sight at least in the beginning of my sobriaty.
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- Coffee. Overslept for an early meeting. Will go to a lunch one before my late shift. Don’t feel too great. I think I have to get used to not feeling great when sober and clean too. Drinking won’t help, or smoking or snorting or swallowing or whatever. Life sober and clean is much much better, even on days when it is not so great. Have a good sober and clean day all. Love from Amsterdam.
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Keeping everything crossed that he finds something good to get back to ASAP and that helps ease some of your money worries. It is so hard when everything keeps being thrown at you. It’s never just one thing is it?
Don’t underestimate everytthing you’ve been through - you’ve got a new job and a new relationship status that you’ve had to work through, and you’ve done it all sober! That’s huge.
You have tried drinking as a response to difficult times before, you know where that gets you. What can you do today that will make you feel genuinely good about yourself? Do that! 
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I totally agree with that! 
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30 days today. There is ZERO reason to go backwards. LET’S GO!
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Yes. As not feeling shitty every morning becomes the new normal, it leaves open a whole range of other ways to feel. Not all of them are delightful. ~sigh~
@ShadowFax 7 day!!! Well done
@Jenyoyo Hope the snot streaming ends soon and your cold is one of those short-lived kind.
@Lionfish 
that he finds something good soon. We have huge $ worries here (loads of debt). The constant worrying and figuring has been less the past 4 months because my hub finally found a job after 2+ years. But it’s been a looooong time since he didn’t drink his way out of any job in about a year. But I’m enjoying the breather while I can.
So I totally understand how it can be become an all-encompassing worry. Stay with us and while I don’t pray at all, I’m thinking the Serenity Prayer would be pretty spot on right now. 
Day 193
My knee woke me up again and when I moved to get up my shoulder popped out.
The pain and the monotony are making me really cranky. I don’t at all feel like drinking, which would be moot since I have no way of getting anything, unless I ask my hub.
And the delight in his face that I’d be drinking again is a satisfaction his lame ass is never going to get.
(See…cranky)
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2 months & 7 days…
So I had a consultation with my GP today and turns out I got my dates mixed up when I actually stopped the opioid/pills use, in the earlier stages my head was pickled to say the least, my bad lol! So actually a couple of day’s less but hey ho, still trucking!
He specialises in substance misuse and said I’m doing really well considering last time I tried the taper it didn’t help me, so again not advised the cold turkey sticking it out was hard but got me the furthest so far in 5-6yrs.
Also wants to up my sertraline to 100mg from 50mg to help with the more psychological & depression side now and leave at that no other medication or adding anymore diazepam, and too keep up the vits & supplements.
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I’d probably throw something else out of whack, so you’re safe. For now. 
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Day 7 . Gym and running errands for today😊
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Missed you!
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Day 4. Still committed to staying sober 
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Congratulations! So happy to see you make a month!!!
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Checking in day 165.
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Day 45… hoping to kick my mental funk
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Cate, you can take the girl out of Britain, but you can’t take British outta the girl.
Glad to see you haven’t succumbed.
@anon44659383 What colour were your tomato’s
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Red. Sheesh