Day 260. I came across this photo yesterday. I was struck by the simple beauty of it. I was really surprised to read that it was taken at Chernobyl. Beauty really is all around us in places we wouldn’t think to look. Wishing you all a day filled with hope and strength.
Yay, Steven! 180 Days!!
Cheking-in on hump day.
Day started off crappy, but I am determined to make it good. Stay sober y’all!!
Day 12
Today is my 7th day so I’m focused on reaching a week.
I’ve learned that sobriety is not the panacea for whatever ails me, but rather a tool to help me cope with reality in a healthier way.
Checking in on day 46…today I feel blluuggghh managed to move my afternoon work to tomorrow so walked the dog, locked the door and came up to bed! Blinds down, bucket of tea, box of chocolate chip cookies and my partner in crime…
my little manx rescue cat JessDavid Goggins is such an inspiration. His appearance on the Joe Rogan podcast is what gave me the spark to change my entire life. I also have read his book five times so far.
I hope you find it as beneficial as I and so many others have.
Way to get after it bro!!
Checking in on day 190.
No cravings so far today. Yesterday’s meeting helped.
With all the struggles that I’ve experienced, the cravings, fantasies, romanicising that I’ve entertained, and all the boundaries that I’ve crossed, it’s a miracle that I’m sober. There were times when I wanted to act out so bad, but circumstances from powers greater than myself stepped in to keep me safe.
In other words, being sober 190 days isn’t all because of me. I needed a lot of help, and I still do. I admit that I’m just as weak as when I first started this journey.
That’s okay. I’ll still take it.
I’ll accept this 190 days as a gift with gratitude.
Thank you everyone!
Thank you Cheryl ! Your message really gave me a stronger feeling of commitment. I am almost sure that I am not using the correct words and it is difficult to express my feeling clearly in english (even in french actually ). Knowing that you and other people in TS are “waiting for” my check in gives me more strenght to stay sober…
Big hugs from Belgium
37 days and feeling great!
Your words are just fine.
My Daily Check-in is the first thing I do each morning, and it has been the most helpful.
@ChicagoT - 300!! Such a wonderful milestone, my dear friend. Progress is not linear, but the trend line goes up. And the dips are real springboards for growth.
@Dejavu - think of you and hoping for a good outcome, by which I mean that you maintain your serenity and peace of mind, whatever happens.
Everyone else - I’m out of likes, but keep rocking sobriety!
Good luck today, Dan.
Sounds like you got the right attitude.
I’ve been in similar situations, always in corporate environments, always involving sad people who take themselves and their job way too seriously.
People cope with mediocrity in strange ways.
Don’t let the bastards get you down.
Thanks @MrCade and @aircircle. I’m expecting the worst and hoping for the best, which best case scenario is I get fired.
Sure would be nice to not drive 180 miles a day!!
Anyways, I’m walking out the door now to go to work, I’ll know my fate in a few hours.
Day 331
What’s it called when your spouse breaks down and cries, and yells at you in despair?
It’s not really a fight per se, but it feels like a fight.
She’s not saying things that are true, but they are her truth and I respect her right to vent them /talk about them.
What are these? They’re not a lecture, although it feels like one. It’s kind of like a petite nervous breakdown.
Thinking of you Dan. What ever will be will be mate. You know you’ll face it with grace and serenity.
Anger is a part of the grieving process. She likely had her heart set on moving forward with the goals you two had set together.
I commend you for recognizing that it isn’t necessarily directed at you. It’s something that only acceptance can solve. Though we all get to that place in our own time.
This is important, my friend. For me, it feels important when a partner validates my feelings and right to feel those things, even if they are aren’t necessarily based in objective reality. Things don’t need to BE real to FEEL real. For me, I now know that my feelings are not necessarily connected to reality, which allows me to get some distance from them, but for a LONG time I thought that feelings were facts. Usually, when I am distressed, I just need to feel heard and understood and validated. Then the feelings shift, in time.
18 days sober . Still binge eating horribly and gaining weight . I have no energy and I gave in and slept all day yesterday :(. It’s ok tho I called my doctor today . My appointment far from now but at least I’m trying cus I know what’s happening now is not mentally healthy .