Day 90 finally lol!
Bit of a bad day yesterday but got through it and feel a lot better after an early night, up fresh and early with a coffee
In the 5~6 years this is the furthest I’ve ever got and plan on it staying way!
Much love for all the support guys & girls
No shame and it’s a hard journey to take, but you’ll get there, just takes time and support 
Day 220. Struggling to get back into my routine following holidays but still feeling strong in sobriety. Have a great day everyone, you are worth it 
It’s the end of day 336
and I wanted to say goodnight to you guys.
Last week and this week are particularly hard.
The loaded schedule is emotionally exhausting.
Today I had IOP plus DUI offender class.
In between those, my IOP called and said that my insurance denied coverage of the program because I had too much time being sober, so that’s a thing.
I also gave my wife the bad news about my health issue today. We’re both rather depressed.
Tomorrow I go to court for the “preliminary pre-trial hearing”. That’s the part where they look at the case and exchange information. The prosecutor may also tell us how much prison time they’d like to give me and then set another court date.
I’m not going to relapse, but man do I want to.
G’night my dears. I love you all.
Get up man and continue
Hi there, as you well know drinking would be a short time solution with many unpleasant side effects and results. I’m glad that you look for the long time solving out. Youve got the strength in you 
Today will be day #1. I leave for work in 3 hours. Not looking forward to headache but I’m optimistic. Thanks for asking!
@Bomdhil no shame here. I commend you for coming back. You can do this, what kind of support do you have? If you’re interested, I also have a few books that are helping me. Allen Carr has a few, and right now I’m reading “This Naked Mind” by Annie Grace. Hang in there my friend 
3 weeks today.
Boooom, well done 
Thank you @keiti for taking the time. Yes, I did not hide alcohol but I hide myself so people doesn’t see me drinking. They saw it at some point one way or another because I can’t stop once I start. I like this forum and will keep reading.
7.46 Days… Yesterday was actually a really good day. It was very productive, didn’t have to cancel any appointments due to being drunk or withdrawing. Another great part was how I felt emotionally. I have a TBI (traumatic brain injury) and it causes a lot of memory issues that embarrass me on a regular basis. Like really embarrass me. I started intermittent fasting a few months ago. It has helped my mental clarity so much. Once I can remember people and words a lot of confidence comes back. Especially after a 40+ hour fast. I felt like myself again yesterday. I smiled as I got in the shower because I was sober and felt good. I was a damn ray of sunshine all day lol.
Looking forward to another sober day. Happy Tuesday folks!!!
Thank you 
I appreciate that.
Checking in day 1. I intend to keep coming back here until I get this right. Well wishes 
Cade man, know that you have the combined strength of all of us behind you bud. You may have to dig a bit deeper but you are that strong.
Face each thing as it comes.
Glad you’re home and that it’s starting out with a positive response.
Are you going back onboard after some leave?
Day 216. My sister and I have never really had a solid relationship-maybe when we were younger but that’s because I was like a minion to her and I didn’t know any better. Since getting sober, I have realized the true person she is. I thought her narcissistic personality was due to the use of drugs and alcohol but even when she sobered up about 2 and a half years ago, she was the same old person. I have had my ups and downs with her and now she is getting married to my best friend from high school (long story). I was looking through my dad’s phone yesterday for something and stumbled across a group text between him my mother and sister. It was a text after one of Cori and my fights that occurred during a family dinner a few months ago. My sister was apologizing as my “jabs” make her act a certain way. She then proceeds to say “she is beneath me. I don’t know why I let her get to me.” Followed by neither of my parents a) telling her that that is not fucking ok and b) not disagreeing with her. That sentence sums up our relationship. I’m supposed to be her maid of honor but seriously? Why would I ever want to stand up next to a person who thinks she’s better than me marrying someone who she basicallg settled for because she knew it would hurt me? I want to so badly go to my parents and be like I can’t bite my tongue any longer how could you let her think this ok? This family dynamic is so shattered etc. I am so not ok with sitting in the shadows anymore. Never once have I said that about her…the fact that she not only believes it but says it to my parents is some next level fucked it. sighs
Day 334.
Today is my official 11 months.
11 months of building a new me! I had planned on getting the 333.33 days screenshot but ironically missed it by 3, haha!
It’s great to see so many new people.
Guys if you do what I did and listen to the advice given you on here, or if you read about someone’s journey? Try anything, even if it feels uncomfortable. If you do it enough it will become the new comfortable.
And if it keeps you sober it very definitely is a win.
I know it’s a cliché but if I did it, so can you. My life revolved around drink.
Everything I did I had to make sure I could get or have a drink. From the moment I got up to the moment I went to bed.
Obviously all that was doing was drowning out things that I was too scared to deal with.
So yes, I’ve had to face them. And that scared me, and still does.
But hey, what’s life without a bit of fear? 
Stay strong people and don’t forget to smile.
