* Checking in daily to help maintain focus

I shouldn’t be surprised, cuz my hub offers me drinks often, but it still stumps me a bit when people do this.
When I know there is a tricky or emotional situation/event coming up, I visualize myself turning down the drink, or not buying myself the drink. I visualize it in a before, during, and after sequence, repeatedly. Your brain can’t tell the difference between reality and imagination, so you can trick/train it like that.

@Mno Sorry to hear about your friend. I hope they find some answers.

@Blondie1x Hell yeah!!

Day 216
My 20-year-old son just texted to tell me he’s ‘surprising’ me by flying home for my birthday next week. He’s a keeper, that one!

Have a thankful Thursday! :hearts:

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Day 6. Feelin pretty good just sleepy. It’s been super rainy here but it’s kind of nice because everyone else is feeling sleepy too so it makes me feel less lazy LOL. Tomorrow will be one week exactly, it went by so fast. Trying to just stay in the moment because as soon as I get too ahead of myself, it becomes overwhelming and then I relapse. Just for today. Happy sober Thursday wonderful people :grin::heart_eyes:

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I hope you have a super birthday @sprinkles!! Your son sounds like a good un… you doing anything nice for the occasion? How’s the knee today? Hope you’re feeling better? :kissing_heart::+1::two_hearts: x

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Thanks!
No plans. Just hoping to see most, if not all of my kids (another son also lives out of town, though still in FL. My youngest son will be coming from Boston) and also see my totally adorable granddaughter.

The knee is relatively pain free, but still doesn’t bend, so I’m mostly stuck on the sofa, like the majority of the past 15 months, and bored and aggravated, and feel a bit defeatist if I let myself. This country’s healthcare is a travesty.

I did find a seated boxing video on YouTube. Boy, punching really does feel good!!!

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Lol… you go girl!! I’ve just bought a boxing bag and gloves! Feels good to beat the shit out of something. Glad the knee is kinda pain free. Your right, your health care is a shocker!! :woman_shrugging:t3:… Hope u n yours have a lovely time together and that they spoil you like know bodies business! You deserve it! Xx

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Checking in. Day 21 completed. Can’t believe I’ve made it 3 weeks. The past 2 weeks have been extremely stressful as my daughter (14) continues to battle depression and an eating disorder. Usually that kind of stress would drive me to drink and just avoid. But I’ve been present and dealing with it. My anxiety is very heightened. Lots of hot tea drinking around here. Not a lot of sleep. She’s missing lots of school and we’re looking into a treatment center for her. Breaks my heart. I just want to fix it. But the best thing I can do for her is to stay sober. So here I am. Another day waking up without a hangover and exhausted because I have trouble sleeping due to all the stress. But it’s still better than being hungover and hating myself for giving up. I’m not giving up on her or me.

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Thanks @SoberWalker. He died tragically (ripped from our lives) when I was 11 right around this time of the year.

@aircircle @Dejavu you two will be missed and please come back soon!

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Busy day today. Not enough time for everything, but definitely time for being sober!!!
Day 20

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June 20, 2017 not a substance! Congrats to you! 823 days for me today too! One day at a time! Stay connected, sponsor, home group, service, meetings, big book meeting. Stay right sized.

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Day 1 sober after binge. I am a bit tired of myself. Sponsor again encourage me and helped with his words

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Awww yay, how lovely :heart_eyes::heart_eyes::heart_eyes:

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Forreal! It’s what you allow when self love is lacking. I’m over that phase of my life.

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Just checking in for day 68. Have a good day all.

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Two weeks of sobriety! Woohoo!

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Day 481

I finally have an appointment with a new therapist/social worker lined up, next Wednesday. I was hoping for sooner, but oh well. The one I had been trying to get in touch with was never reachable and had a full voicemail, couldn’t leave a message – so yeah, no. Scoured the web for a new one to try. I made 5 phone calls yesterday to ones that I thought would be a good fit. First one to get back to me was the one I had the highest hopes for, seemed like the best fit based on his background, so we’re scheduled now.

Haven’t done therapy in almost 3 years but I really need to clean my shit up. My mental well-being is spiraling.

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I hope therapy and counseling Grant’s you the answers you are seeking. Mental health is so important and you are doing great by choosing to be proactive about getting better. Half the battle is having the courage to acknowledge that you need some help. In a more positive note, 481 days clean is inspiring! Wanna be like you when I grow up lol

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Well done!!

Thanks, yeah hopefully it will help. I was somewhat skeptical due to past experiences, but I am hopeful and open because I need to be in order for it to potentially help. It’s a new therapist so I can’t judge this time by my past experiences in therapy.

You’ll be at 481 days and beyond before you know it. Seriously, it goes by fast. You’re doing fantastic!

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Checkin in and I’m on my day 18 and I am freaking out! Something in my brain switched at some point yesterday. I’m going out of town for work this weekend and there is this beautiful human I will be meeting up with. In the past we drank together and I never had a problem over drinking. I managed to convince my mind (while ranting to a friend about how beautiful this man is) that maybe the reason I had been overdrinking was to cope with the trainwreck of a relationship I was drowning in. And now that I have moved on from that relationship and that part of my life I can have a couple drinks with this super cute guy that gives me freaking butterflies. He knows I have been going to meetings daily. I have told him that I had stopped drinking in the past. He supports this. BUT IM SO NERVOUS! What if I’m awkward around him sober? What if i’m shy? What if he doesnt drink because im not and then we’re both awkward and sober?! SOMEBODY NEEDS TO BE DRINKING SO I DONT SEEM AS AWKWARD! These damn what ifs! My brain is running in circles… Oh damn…

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Sooooo proud of you Tristan! :heart:

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