Yes I agree with y’all, I am not going to tell her. I mean I just want her to call me out not look after me like a baby sitter or anything. But, I think I have put enough pressure on myself at this point, I hope. My husband is one to let me do it bc I think he misses some of those drinking times. This will be her 4th year with us so she has seen the theatrics, if you know what I mean. I’ll be happy to share a different experience this year. 
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622 days of brighter mornings.
Keep trudging folks, if you’re struggling just get through the day. See what tomorrow brings.
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@lifeswhatyoumakeit thank you for your words days ago. Sorry for the delay answering you.
Day 2 sober. I am numb and living almost in autopilot. I don’t want to think in what I have done. I am disgusted with myself
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I’ve seen that you have struggled on and off for a little while now bud is there any changes you can make to your recovery plan to make it more effective or anything extra you can add to your arsenal 
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Day 340
As usual, this morning I’m grateful to wake up in my own bed, fully rested and ready for the day.
I’m grateful for Corey Gunter and the carpool lane.
For my job, which I absolutely love.
For craft services which, I admit, i am sometimes powerless over.
For the growing closeness I share with my higher power. I am in your hands.
For colleagues in recovery. I love seeing familiar faces in the rooms.
For MPI and Optum. Health insurance is my new sports car.
For this life that accommodates my recovery and all the meeting and running around I have to do.
For Uber driver’s. Even the bad ones that don’t understand what a map is or how it works.
I’m grateful that today, my needs are met and I am living in relative peace, despite challenges.
Above all, I’m grateful to be clean and sober, without which, none of the gratitude above happens.
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Love that quote. Is it his words?
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Not a problem and fully understand
The starts the hardest part, but once you get in the flow with a few weeks it’ll become second nature.
Just need to find the right method or methods that’ll help you and build a support network as well as on here, also occupying your time to keep you diverted and focusing on something else.
Sure it will slot into place, just needs a bit of adaption 
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Very wise. Me like 
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Funny Dee you are one hell of a guy. Happy for your numbers and love your attitude. The best men on earth are strong as oxes 
but with soft spots here and there 
Love B
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Hanna B. I’ve learned much about strength and sobriety from you. Thank You for being a friend. Much love back at you…
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Thanks, az 
u2
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Feeling off today. Definitely the 1st day in a long time since going sober (69 days) and I’m emotionally disturbed for some unknown reason. I actually feel triggered to drink. I want to go to a bar and have some seasonal pumpkin flavor based cocktail. I’m not going to but I’m definitely romanticizing it. I just feel like hiding and crying this void I feel out. Maybe that will help. Anything but alcohol.
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Good for you for recognizing the thoughts. Catching them is the first step in preventing them from becoming reality. Is there anything you can do to distract yourself? Something to do, someone to call/text? Not sure if you go to meetings (I don’t personally, but they help a lot of people), that’s an option.
Your idea of hiding and crying it out also works too! Sometimes we need that. Maybe a good night for some TV and snacks. We can do anything EXCEPT drink. Worse comes to worse, go to sleep! It’s like fast-forwarding through the urge to drink. Gone when you wake up.
Good work coming on here an letting the thoughts out.
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I don’t think meetings are for me. I’m currently at work and will be pretty busy for most of the evening. When I go home I’m going to crash early to get my mind recalibrated.
Thank you for listening.
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That sounds like a great plan. Keep it up!
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@Desire2ChangeToday That happens to me a lot too, and I just don’t get why I romanticize it so much. Looks and sounds so good, until after 
Definitely not as sexy as we pictured lol. I don’t know what it is, but I totally get it!
Do you know what triggered you? I think it’s great you came on here, it means you don’t want to give in and you’re increasing your chances for success. Sounds like you have it pretty mapped out. Busy is great! And when you wake up sober, how happy you will be 
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So many things in this world I don’t know about. Two words,
pumpkin
spice
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