FWIW, I found that around many milestone dates I would feel off and triggered…it passed, but it sucked feeling so out of sorts.
Hopefully your busy evening will help. Lots of water too. And congrats on your 69 days!!!
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I think this maybe what it is. A feeling to self sabotage after coming up on milestones.
@Girlinterrupted
- I’m also doing very well at work and am financially looking up, which sparks a need “to celebrate” when lord knows I’d have never made it this far with the assistance of alcohol, that’s for sure. Even doing well can be triggering.
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Day 34. Today I woke up feeling sad and blah. Its 11:30 am now and I just want to get drunk. Forget all my problems for a while. I know that all drinking would do is make things way worse but I could really use a drink. I am going to try to do some yoga and journal instead. I am just so tired of being depressed because I am still learning how to deal with emotions and feelings while being sober.
Much love to all of you 
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It’s something white girls from the United States obsess over. They are usually found wearing Ugg boots, black stretch pants, college hoodie, plaid scarf and their hair in a bun. They flock to Starbucks in large groups to purchase pumpkin spice lattes and discuss which Chad they are going to sleep with at tonight’s kegger at Delta Sig Nu.
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Thanks, today’s cultural swap completed 
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Same. Woke up with a headache & feeling hungover. Been sleepy all day at work. Been thinking about drinking all day too. I just want to escape for a little while and not feel all the feels. But I know in the end drinking will bring more pain, not lessen the pain. So I guess what I really want is escape more than a drink.
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Exactly. I need to escape from all the feels. It’s too much. I feel like I am drowning in feelings. I just want to run away.
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I’m a white girl in the US and I don’t like pumpkin spice. Never have understood what the big deal is. Plus, here in Texas, August didn’t get the memo that summer is supposed to be over so drinking hot beverages isn’t something I want to do when it’s 95° outside!
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Day 4 today … gonna spend the next few weeks looking to find a new sponsor to take me back through my steps. I will keep fighting for my life… X god bless you all x
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When I get like that I decide that it’s time for some self care. I put on clothes that make me feel comfy and assess what would make me the most mentally healthy. Sometimes I read. Sometimes I watch TV, take a bath, buy myself a yummy treat (like cake!) and enjoy eating it instead of feeling guilty about indulging, or I’ll drink a cup of tea and pull out a coloring book. I do know that if I need space and to get “away” I can do that safely at home. Not sure you’re in a position to do something lovely for yourself that doesn’t involve your DOC but maybe think about what it would look like and go for it if you can. I’m already planning on telling my husband and kids that I’m not available tonight. I’m going to hide out in my bedroom with a movie and something sweet. I don’t have the emotional bandwidth to be around people tonight and I’m not going to drink so that’s the next best thing right now. Hope you can figure out a way to give yourself a break. And we may just have to feel the feels a little bit tonight. But we’ll survive! 
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Congrats on day 4! Keep it up. Best of luck finding a new sponsor. Glad you’re seeking one!
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My ended relationship was physically abusive as well… and I am ashamed to say that I miss him and wanted so badly to believe that he could change. Never thought I’d be here either. Hugs
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Hugs to you too. Each day gets easier but it still hurts. Sobriety helps us be kinder to ourselves. Someone once told me to never be ashamed for loving someone. But damn lol
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So glad you made it home safely! Don’t be too hard on yourself about your ex. Abusive relationships are complicated and you’re human. I’m a pleaser so I put up with stuff I should have no tolerance for. All we can control though is our behavior and how we respond to others. Take what you can learn from that relationship and do your best to be healthy and happy going forward. Leave the past behind as best you can. You are worth so much more than the way he treated you! You deserve better!
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I’m a bit down @siand, a bit depressed so to say. I think it’s a combination of stress at work, getting my 1 year milestone and autumn.
5htp is a supplement who increases the serotonin level.
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Day 4… feeling greatful to be back x
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@anon86726034 haha. I call girls bro and dude all the time so it’s all good lol.
I’m actually going to check it out! It sounds right up my alley. I have a bunch of books next to me, and I’ll add it to the pile. Thank you so much for mentioning it and I hope it helps you too
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Day 334. Today is 11 months.
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I’m a 40 year old single mom and this is day 8 for me.
Sorry for my bad English…I’m Dutch…but I do understand very well though .
I’m doing well…Had headaches and tremor, restless, moodswings and being very tired…graving too…but doing well.
Started off my running and meditation again… new job.
Tonight having a drink after work…already told I’m not drinking.I can and will do this.
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