Hi my name is Leah. I am an alcoholic. Today is my first sober bday in at least 25 yrs. I am 42. Today is all I know, and today is the day. I am sober and could not have it any other way. This does not mean I don’t crave or have those thoughts. My priority right now is feeling good. Being sober helps.
Thanks everyone!
Soooooooo sleepy. 1 last work appointment and going to snuggle on my couch with tea for the rest of the day.
Welcome on Talking Sober forum Leah!
I share a lot of the same views. I’ve just decided for me there’s plenty of room in my life for both. I don’t see science and my higher power as competing. But more like working together.
Day 6 and starting to feel like me again. Staying very focused on my recovery . God bless you all x
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out of likes since last night and I’m not happy about this, now I have to shudder use words! You’re all doing it, keep it going! 
This is true friendship. You are very lucky, Jenna
Happy birthday, Leah:birthday:
Happy sober 42th Leah! Being sober helps feeling good! Yes it does. Thank you.
Day 0. I had a terrible saturday and missed a family function due to my alcoholism. Today has been debilitating anxiety. I talked to my mother in law and she is going to take whats left of my wine and liquor. I poured out what was left of my beer. So this week will be something that I had never accomplished before in my previous quits. An alcohol free house. My wife agreed to support me by not drinking either. I need to find some kind of meeting. Thinking about entering the smarts program that somebody on here recommended me.
An alcohol free house seems like a good start friend. Finding a meeting too. If there’s no SMART meeting around (I like SMART a lot) maybe try another one? Seems to me you really need some support and help. Success.
8am, day 3 checking in… Feeling ok… Now to do a bit of reading on here 
My alcohol addiction has hit critical mass. Basically I’m not able to hide it anymore from my family or myself. Going to a meeting will be a first for me and im not really sure where to start. But my wife told me (and i belived her) that this addiction is stronger than me. I got triggered when this wine club called me to upate my billing info. Also the family event was at a pub. I started having a couple beers after work this week and i didnt even make it on saturday. I was drunk first thing in the morning and passed out. When i woke up at 6 i didn’t even know if it was am or pm. Something has got to change or my daughter will suffer a life of living with an alcoholic father.
Hi … it’s great you can see you need to change a0nd no longer in denial about your drinking. Not sure if you have any aa meetings near to you but they really did help me to start understanding about my addiction and how to keep soba . Good luck and keep us updated with how your getting on x
You go to a meeting asap plz. It really doesn’t matter too much where to go first unless one program is totally against your belief system. First time is scary to go. I actually didn’t dare to enter the first time I went. But the second time I did. Be sure you’ll be very welcome and there will be folks there who know what you are going through. And who want to help. And who can help. You are here. You can go to a meeting too. Something has got to change, for your daughter for sure but at least as much for yourself.
I’m really scared to go and im super confused as to how to get started. My wife says i should wait to call because im such a ball of anxiety today. She wants to go hang out with my parents but im super ashamed about missing the party yesterday and don’t know how to explain my behaviour.
You get started by going. No confusion there. I think, from here, right now you don’t need to explain yourself. Your wife knows. You need help. You won’t find it at your parents I think. You might very well find help at a meeting.
I was terrified the first time I ever went to a meeting I cryed my heart out all the way through … I was broken and busted… but everyone in the room could understand how I felt cod they all went through the same feeling as i did and I got so much help and love. X
I have massive anxiety with that stuff. Since your wife is so supportive, what if maybe you find an open meeting and she can go with you? It always helps me in that kind of situation. Glad you hopped on here right away. Good stuff.
Now waking up to Day 8
Horrible sleep again last night. I fall asleep easy then wake up every few hours. Toss and turn. It does get better right?
And sweets! I never had a sweet tooth in my life until coming off booze. I am giving myself till double digit days to enjoy but then sweets gotta go too.
I am still antsy. Need to move more. Lots of walking. I know things take time. One day at a time.
Still nice to wake up without a headache and the need to drink a pot of coffee.
