Day 55 in the Peak District. It’s raining here also… it’s lovely and cosy and dry in my bedroom though lol. Duvet day for me! Until the dog needs to go out again anyway. Struggled a lot yesterday evening. Had a really busy couple of days and booze would of been my treat (shit loads of it)… The wine bitch in my head was going crazy! I had a Chinese takeaway instead. Filled my belly right up and went to bed at 8 with a bucket of snore and peace tea and TS. She’s quiet again for now though 
. I love this forum! And I love that we all go through this together, no matter where you are in the world, no matter what time and no matter what your DOC. Thanks for being there guys and gals! 
xx
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I can well relate to that , even after 327 days I still get that same thing going round my head, crazy day at work, or I am stressed …I would have normally solved that with a beer…but things are different now , I now find different things to relax me down ,or reward myself with, …and amen to 55 days …go you 
, and like you I love this forum it’s been such a positive impact on my life and my road to recovery 
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Who has woe? Who has sorrow? Who has strife? Who has complaining? Who has wounds without cause? Whose eyes are red and dim? Those who linger long over wine, Those who go to taste mixed wine. Do not look at wine when it is red, When it sparkles in the glass, When it goes down smoothly. At the last it bites like a serpent And stings like a viper. Your [drunken] eyes will see strange things And your mind will utter perverse things [untrue things, twisted things]. And you will be [as unsteady] as one who lies down in the middle of the sea, And [as vulnerable to disaster] as one who lies down on the top of a ship’s mast, saying, “They struck me, but I was not hurt! They beat me, but I did not feel it! When will I wake up? I will seek more wine.”
PROVERBS 23:29-35 AMP
https://bible.com/bible/1588/pro.23.29-35.AMP
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Checkin in on day 9. Really had a good weekend so far. Did some shopping,went to dinner with the hubs and spent quality time with the kiddos. Being sober was fun!!! I feel like I’m really in the moment instead of constantly trying to make a deal and meet someone or go somewhere. Less anxious and more happy. Happy Sunday y’all 
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Thanks! 
It’s just changing that neuro pathway that takes some serious strength but we’re gonna do it!! You’re rocking 327 days lovely 
! You’re nearly at your year are you going to do anything special to celebrate? 
Xx
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Day 7 check in. I’ve been having stomach pain and digestive issues which is even more incentive to clean up my eating and drinking habits. Feeling good today other than some pain. We go to the beach next week and I’m really looking forward to it.
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Aww thankyou , and yeah you are so right ,its all about deconstructing yourself and starting again …where I am now and who I was 11 months ago are 2 completely different people …I now have dreams and aspirations for my life ,I’m actually working my mental health rather it working me …I’ve learnt 3 key things …acknowledgement, understanding and acceptance,all 3 of these things have played such a massive part in my recovery , I know who I am now and what my limitations are when it comes down to how alcohol and drugs impact my life , and I have to pinch myself that after 23 years of addiction I’m here today 11 months clean and sober .and while my life is not perfect and I’m constantly facing challenges …I’m dealing with it one day at a time …I’m not sure what im gonna do on my 1st birthday, my wife done a 6 month thing for me so knowing her she has something up her sleeve lol
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It’s awful what booze does to us. We get so very stuck and it truly does feel like we could never be anything other than stuck. This forum and people like you prove that it can be done! I had so much trauma in my life and two older (I now realise) raging alcoholic sisters, I thought drinking to cope/numb was the way people do it??? I just decided that I wasn’t going to be the next raging alcoholic in the family line! It’s awesome but daunting coming into the real world. I’ve always been drinking or taking something since I was 16… I’m 43 now! I have two lads which I didn’t imbibe in anything during my pregnancies but after I got straight back to it 
. For me it feels like starting life again. Learning what I like, want, don’t want etc. I bet your wife is going to spoil you rotten in your soberversary! Oooooo it exciting! Can’t wait to hear what you do for it! Xx
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@SoberWalker. Looks like your band is all percussion?
I bet it sounds amazing, even in the rain!
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Woke up with a headache. My whole body is being thrown off by having to make adjustments in walking, sitting, sleeping for this damned knee. So I think it’s a tension-type headache that a bit of self-massage to the neck and stretches will help.
Then there’s the headache of the hub home all day. It’s just past 7am and there is beer in the fridge already.
I really have to work on my resentment towards him. But first, coffee. Breakfast of those who don’t drink wine in the morning anymore!!
Have a lovely Sunday you amazing peeps!!
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12.58 Days… I had a lovely day with my girls yesterday. For those who may remember, my 23 year old and I were briefly estranged last year and it broke my heart. However, she moved back in with me in August 2018, and it’s been going really well for the most part, but she can still be slightly angsty. Don’t get me started on the angst with my 14 year old. That one is a little funny. Anyway, there was a moment last night where we were all laughing so hard we could barely breathe, just playing hangman. Moments like that really make me treasure sobriety. There wouldn’t be moments like that with me drunk. I’m so grateful for another sober day.
9.34 days ED free
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I can relate to your need for alone time. I need that much more now that I’m not drinking every day. I need time to process. It’s not selfish. It self care.
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That sounds wonderful @Girlinterrupted! I’d love to have a moment like that with my girls. Working towards reconnecting with them. This gives me hope. They are 18 and 14. And that 14 year old is A LOT right now. Such a hard age.
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Snap I’m 43 to ,yeah without a doubt …everywhere you look temptation is there and that’s where the self belief , honesty and strength comes in, and this is what I love about recovery , it’s so honest …u can lie to everyone but not your self and that feeling knowing you havnt picked up in 10 days ,1 month ,1 year is amazing because you have achieved that all by yourself…having this second chance to start again is a blessing, and yeah hopefully I may get a prezzie or to lol
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Hi there! I am doing well. Friday was a bad day, but today is Sunday, and already at 7:30a it’s a good one! Going to an AA meeting.
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@crystalclear it takes a lot of patience. I had to be very careful with it not to scare her off. I dropped little light contacts of kindness, but not too much, and just let her come to me when she was ready. It was very hard and she tested me a lot. It was hard because I had to draw firm boundaries for the first time ever, which made me afraid to lose her again. However, the opposite happened. Now, she sure gets disappointed if I slip, but she knows I’m trying and that I won’t give up. She’s supportive now.
Now, the 14 year old. She’s a very different person. Never pegged her to be angsty in her teens, but yet here we are lol.
So yes! There is hope. Be patient and don’t try to rush anything. Actions speak loudly in our situation 
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Just checking into day 71. Happy Sunday folks.
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Had the whole day rain, and yes I had a poncho. Just warmed up in the shower and relaxing at home. Ordered pizza 
But it was a good day, the runners were happy with our beats! 
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Yes @sprinkles, we all are playing a percussion instrument. Some small, some very big We make a lot of noise! (Brazilian samba).
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I would love to hear that!
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