Everyday will have its challenges, when you question your capacity to continue, read. Sometimes I’ll look up motivational quotes on sobriety, sometimes I’ll read about others challenges and successes here, other times I’ll write down all my reasons for staying the course. It’s difficult but it’s worth it…also talking to somebody who understands is helpful.
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[quote=“Quit4myDaughter, post:6328, topic:64782”]
Something has got to change or my daughter will suffer a life of living with an alcoholic father.
[/quote]…or worse yet a life without a father…unfortunately we never know where the drunken road will take us.
Your screen name really resonates with me. For years my main reason for wanting to quit drinking was for my daughter. I thought if I could put her first I could finally quit. Unfortunately all it really did was made me feel more shame and more guilt and more self hatred because I just couldn’t piece together any meaningful time sober even for this tiny human I love more than anything. What I came to realize is that we have to do it for ourselves. We need to love ourselves. Love yourself enough to stop. You deserve a happy and healthy life, free of the anxiety and shame that follows drinking. Your daughter and everyone around you will benefit from you becoming the best version of yourself.
It sounds like your wife is supportive and definitely getting all of the booze out of the house is a must. I truly hope you get to a meeting and know if you choose, you never have to experience that anxiety again from missing something due to drinking.
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8 months and a few days sober. 
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@deadman, we’re sober twins 
you just reminded me I have my milestone day too today. Massive congrats, you did it 
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Big hug on 337 
I’m grateful that you exist (and that R doesn’t) 
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You will go through the day. You will
- Coffee. Getting ready to leave. I used to drink at the airport. Used to drink quite a lot on a flight. Good I don’t do that no more. It’s better to be clean and sober at 36,000ft too. Curious how I’ll feel when I emerge on the other side of the ocean. Have a good Tuesday all! Sober and clean. Love from Amsterdam.
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Day9: Checking in sober! What a terrible night… This was the worst night since I am sober. Doesn’t mather how tierd I am, as soon if I go to bed my brain starts working like a high speed diesel train. All kinds of stuff going to my mind… why could I not just think about this during the day? 
This morning I go to the gym with my dad. He is 69 years old but still fit. Lets see if he is still stronger like he was 10 years ago 
For the rest of the day I hope not to be to borred because its realy shit weather again here.
Stay strong 
“When you can’t find the sunshine, be the sunshine”
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Good morning Menno, I wish you a save and pleasant trip! And enjoy your “sober” holiday!
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Well done!
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Thank you for all your replies, much appreciated.
And no you didn’t overstep anything @Mtrav0040. My mind knows I have to move on, but my heart won’t. It’s strange how in my head I’m still a little girl and he is my grown up dad who turns his back on me.
But I’m allmost 52 and he’s allmost 80
Yes, time to move on.
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Congratulations @Deadman! 
Tadaaaaa! 1 year sober!!
Congratulations @Stac, 8 months is huge 
Day 386 
Heavy day yesterday and heavy night too. But working today, so I can set my mind on something different. Away for a meeting for the band tonight so no time to be a couch potato then too. Ate a lot of crap yesterday (like half a pie!) So going to focus on good food today.
There’s allways a new day to do better then the day before.
And despite all my anger and sorrow towards my dad, I’m gratefull for my happy childhood. It made me who I am today
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Yes I actually just started on this gratitude app that’s helping me journal and a mindfulness app. Both of those are turning out to be a huge benefit.
https://youtu.be/kJ8ftw6czYY Day 28 and if I could talk puppy this is what my dog is whining about every god dam morning he wakes me up.
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527
Blessed that I made it through another day clean.
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Day 339 and checking in, hope everyone is doing ok …just gonna post a quote I saw today …have a great day in recovery guys
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Hi all, today it is
My first sober year as emoji evolution
And the nomination goes to all of you friends, my family, dog & cat, invisible muscles I have, HP and AA
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