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Josh, I am glad you received the go ahead.
All of those workers that receive good clean meals will be appreciative.
It is doubly fantastic news that you get to keep your job and help people at the same time.
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Three weeks sober today. Woke up to a pretty snowy scene, serene looking. It’s bizarre to see the world standing still on a Monday morning. I told my husband that I can’t remember, can only guess the last time I hadn’t had any booze for this long. He said to me, “I can see you now. I used to see the shape of you but you were gone. Now there are windows opening. It’s nice to have you back.” I’m tearing up again typing this. He surprises me sometimes with the poetry that comes out of his mouth. There’s a line from the movie I 
Huckabees (great film) where Naomi Watts’ character keeps repeating “How am I not myself…” and that’s been in my head on repeat for ages. It feels good to feel like myself in some sense again, but I know I have more work to do. I guess that’s what it means to live. For now, taking it day by day is working for me.
Today I am grateful for:
- Sore and stiff body from yoga yesterday that is begging for some movement
- Knowing that things sometimes get harder before they get easier
- My ability to detach from the media/social media for my mental well being, but stay informed enough right now
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Day 107. Continuing to work from home. Snowy day in my area. My little guy is stir crazy. I just took a break from working so we could make a wooden race car craft and made some homemade “jello” from scratch with with cherry juice. Hang tight, sober friends.
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Nice double digits!! 
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And you should feel accomplished. You’re back, and working it. That’s something to be proud of; not giving up. 
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Not checked in in a long while. Day number-- I’ve stopped counting!
Thankfully my work is currently considered essential so I am still earning a wage. There are a lot of people drinking at home during their isolation, we processed thirty thousand boxes full of bottles of wine for home delivery over the weekend, hopefully this will not be the cause for more cases of alcoholism. I’m thinking of booking myself am air BnB for a couple of months as I’m not too concerned about getting this covid-19 myself but passing it on to my parents could be catastrophic and I could not forgive myself if anything happened because of me.
I hope that everyone is well and holding it together during these testing times. Using drugs is far far from my mind and I’ve been practising social distancing for some years now. It’s nice to see that some people are being Caring, considerate and compassionate at a time when many selfish people’s true colours are coming out.
Virtual hugs to all as a genuine physical one is obvs of the table for the time being!! 
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Thanks Buts! Happy 18 to you too!! How have you been?
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Well done on your sober days and that’s a great post, almost choked me up but I got company 
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Not very good lately. Sober but stressed because of the Corona virus. In the city were I live there are a lot of corona patients. The hospital is full.
Today they anounced more rules to keep people inside. My store is still open, but I have a sick co worker with corona. It’s the manager so I’m running the shop now. It’s weird my store is more busy then right before Christmas 
They anounced new rules tonight. One of them is I can’t play in my band for a few monts 
No gatherings untill 1th of june. I have to find new hobby’s.
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Today has been okay. Started my day off with a small argument with my hubby tho. Just feeling like I’m constantly screwing up and disappointing him. Decided to channel my energyinto cleaning. Opened up the windows and got some fresh air. Would do anything to be out in the woods right now… just needing a break
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Checking in, day 9.
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Checking in on day 9… I feel like the past 12 days have been this cycle of super happy-> happy-> denial-> depression-> downfall-> pick myself up again -> super happy again… repeat. Yesterday I was happy, today I am fighting my demise. I just need to hang in there. Stay positive. Go for a walk. Anything but drink. And pray that super happy me comes back soon. Ugh. Stay strong.
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Thanks, man! 
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Yeah!! Everything you said!! And dont let that negative voice take over!! My sister facetimed me right after I posted that and I spoke to her and my nephews and then I called my mom. And now the craving has passed! I feel so much better.
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Day 7, and I am telling myself what I usually tell myself at this point:
You don’t want to quit forever, you just needed to dry out for awhile. Or:
You quit for a week! You don’t have a problem. See? You can stop whenever you want! Or:
You’ve been doing great! You deserve a beer. One beer won’t hurt ( even though 1 turns to many PDQ).
Need to remind myself that booze is not a reward, nor is it a stress reliever. Need to remember my past patterns and stay strong, even though I feel so very weak right now. Your thoughts and prayers for me tonight would be appreciated. Thanks everyone.
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Hang in there Paul. I’m like you, I have to remind myself that it’s just that voice whispering! It’s just a drunk/hangover at the end of the day.
C`mon, you are doing great!
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Sorry I’m late to the party @Lilemm. Huge Congrats on 4 months. I’m so happy you got the courage to get a sponsor. You’re really making big strides. Stay strong!
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Wow! Look at you stacking those days up Shay. Congrats on 8 months!! Stay strong!
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Thank you Lisa! I appreciate it. This whole cabin fever thing has made a drink look real handsome lately but I shall prevail. 
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