@crystalclear
Cogratulations on 196 days!!! You are kicking-ass!!
I’ve been re-programming to bypass freak-out when I cannot control something in this age of CV.
I think isolation is okay. These are heavy times and everyone needs to process it in their own way.
As long as I can get on the bike for an hour a day I can stay sane.
Hang in there and try to let the things you cannot control roll off!!!
Way to go!! I’m glad to see you are still here and going strong! Keep up the good work. I know about being a hermit, I went to go for a walk yesterday and some of my neighbors were outside and pretty much called me out for isolating myself all the time, haha. I guess they noticed! So I chatted them up, it was good.
Heading in to day 7. About to get ready for work, just taking my time. No real rush to go in as I will be the only person there besides my boss. Grateful that I can still go in and accumulate a paycheck while most are being forced to stay at home. Also grateful that I am getting to practice what it will feel like to be part time some day…that is a goal of mine. To be able to live comfortably and work part time!! I’ll keep dreaming for now though.
Thanks. I’ve been lurking here daily and reading a lot. Just can’t seem to engage as much as I used to. I’m overwhelmed by all of the virus talk so I just stay out of it. Appreciate your encouragement. 
Beautiful numbers @AyBee 
Also, I can’t remember the last time I had a donut. Now I want one. Pretty sure I could call it an emergency ‘need’. Yes? 
I relate to those feelings so much. I listened to Brené Brown’s new podcast “Unlocking Us” and she talked about how to understand and deal with feeling new at something and being vulnerable. I highly recommend taking a listen. All her work resonates so much with me. Hang in there, it will get easier.
Edit: She even gives a shout out to recovery work!
Good morning every, day 51. I just woke up to my mother telling me my youngest Addie is on the way to the hospital, she was on one of those kangaroo ball things and fell and hit hear head and chin really hard, and was throwing up. I’m sure she is going to be ok, but I feel bad for my lil girl:(. My work did decide we are going to alternate weeks so I got the rest of the week of. My buddy who said I can’t lift let me steal a few things bc he doesn’t lift anyway so now I can get a good home work out. Had a nice phone session with my therapist and she gave me some new assignments. Not much else to report, I’m still waking up. Just hanging out with autumn. Have a good Weds everyone. Keep it up
If i know myself well it will be 14 days before i will have a craving again and thats when i have to be carefull and reach out
Day 23. Feel peaceful yet restless, if that makes any sense. I often have contradictions in my brain, possibly due to a habitually overthinking mind.
Today I will practice piano. I played for 15 years up until I started college and have only touched it on rare occasions since. My husband is a musician, drummer and bass player, and it’s his dream for me to play with him more often. I have wanted to but have given in to fear most of the time. My ego dominates and if I can’t do something well I’d rather not do it at all - something that getting sober is forcing me to confront and work on. I also have only “jammed” with him and his occasional buddies while hammered, relying on liquid courage. It was fun sometimes, but that’s not how I want to experience playing music.
My parents kept my childhood piano and transported it to me when I moved closer to them a few years ago. It has sat neglected in my living room. Today I will start another “sober personal best” and touch the keys, even if only for a few minutes.
Today I’m grateful for:
Sounds very good dear 
you are doing great. Keep up the good work you are doing. I think we will experience this fight in our brains for a while, until we get more settled
Just a quick update to say I am so grateful for this community.
After a frustrating situation I was reminded of an important thing. Part of finding acceptance is being ok with the fact that not everything can, or should, be fixed.
I don’t go to meetings and don’t know many people who get this kind of stuff. Nice to have people to share it with 
Nice numbers!! Beautiful family 
Thanks for this. I am a creature of habit and I like order and control. Really struggling right now with wanting to fix things and control my surroundings because it makes me feel safer. I’m micromanaging my teenagers (or at least trying to) and they aren’t having it. My brain is my enemy at the moment and I needed to see this in black and white today. It’s ok to not be ok. But it sure doesn’t FEEL ok.
Love the numbers Love the quote too
Congratulations!!
Nice job on 77.77 days!!!
Nice pic too
Nice one. Well done.
we keep trying. Well done.
amazing as ever.
