That made me smile Donna. Thank you 
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Great job!! Keep it going
Hopefully the SMART meetings are helping.
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Aww!! Thank you @Conor689908, @C_8, @anon79808082, @PaulH, @SassyRocks, @GVLNative and @aircircle for all the well wishes. It’s very much appreciated. The support you all give is truly amazing! 
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Day 90!!! Early morning check in. It’s 5.15 am here. About to go to work and get my day started. Got some coffee in me but still pretty tired LOL.
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Day 519. Didn’t spend today as I would have liked. Still struggling with focus a lot. Still sad and tired. Oh well. Life is generally going well outside of my brain.
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- Think I have been depressed over everything that has happened this past month. Having to shut my business temporarily, some of my students leaving, some of my students just leaving and not even telling me anything or returning messages (this one really irritates me), and other things I dont even want to get into.
That being said today I felt motivated and excited about things again. I am looking at new ways to push forward and grow even though I’ve had setbacks. Things were going well and they can be again.
I’m very blessed to be healthy and have my family be healthy. Everything else is just icing on the cake. Pity party is over. Time to kick some ass again.
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Feel you… I’m tired of the pity too. It’s so draining at the end. Tired of this.
Checking at just past 7 days by almost an hour. Today was rough. Depressed and anxious. Insomnia right now. Tired and weak, but hopeful and sober. Grateful to be here again today.
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Checking in after resetting my timer 
🤦 I made it 15 days and then my birthday came around and my ridiculous addict brain said I deserved to do what I want because it was my birthday. From Friday afternoon until this afternoon I was back into my old habits. I’m back and ready to do this yet again.
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- Coffee. Work. Thanks all for sharing your stuff here. Makes me realise I have so much to be grateful for actually. My health. A job. A roof over my head. Food on my pate. Friends. A cat. To name but a few. And my sobriety of course. So very grateful for that. I can’t do it alone. Love this place and love the good folks that fight their good fights individually together. Have a good day all. Sober and clean. Love from Amsterdam and yellowstone 3 years ago today…
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@Mno Menno just out of curiosity…
Did u attend a online zoom meeting sunday morning from amsterdam?
I was doubting if it was u yes or no…
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141 Days: Stress, its constant now, everywhere. Had a huge reminder on Sunday of one of the reasons I no longer drink. I was headed over to see my kids, going to help my daughter set up a trampoline I bought her four years ago, her mom wouldn’t ever let me set it up for her, but given the recent virus restrictions she decided it would give my daughter something to do. My daughter was ecstatic and I was excited to be helping her.
I had also loaded up a bunch of my power tools for my son who has wanted to start building different things out of wood to help him pass the time. I was excited to help him as well.
While on the phone with my son while driving out, who I get along with extremely well and rarely lose my temper with, I was running a little late and I got the expected cooped up 17 year old attitude.
With all the stress of the last few weeks I snapped, I was pissed off. I got to the house and huge argument occured, to the point where we were face to face, yelling, saying things that neither of us meant.
He finally looked at me and yelled “are you drunk”! I wish he would have doubled up his fist and punched me in the face because that would have hurt far less then that comment.
The last time I got in an argument with my son like that was when he was 11. I was drunk off my ass. That argument affected him greatly and I promised not to never yell at him again in anger. And I haven’t. Not until Sunday and I wasn’t drunk, just stressed and not even his fault.
Luckily I realized my wrong after a little time apart. We cried and hugged it out and I apologized, told him I loved him and made that promise once again to never yell out of anger. Talking accomplishes so much more.
Point to my long story is that drinking turned me into a person I was ashamed to be. The stress of this crazy world is tearing me down the same way drinking did. I need sobriety now more than ever and I need every tool in my toolbox to stay sober and to try and not let the stressors of today turn me into the sober drunk that I hate.
With the help of my higher power and by taking things one day at a time I’m going to stay sober and not let stress turn me into a man I don’t want to be.
Hope everyone can stay sober and as stress free as possible. Love you all.
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Yes absolutely. I logged into a toolbox smarts meeting from canada and it gave me some good tips for preventing anxiety and other things. Definitely liked the cognitive behavior approach for that issue. Thanks for sending it 
and thanks for tagging me here too. 
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97 days without alcohol 
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Congratulations with your 200 days Lisa🎊
Two of my co workers has covid too. They are for 2 weeks at home now, they are feeling a bit better but still are very tired. The rest of their family hasn’t have the virus.
Take care, I hope your husband will feel better soon and you and your daughter won’t get it.
@zzz have you ever consider rehab or AA? Ore have you tried that? Your story reminds me of my dark days 
Congratulations with your 2 months @Sam7 
Keep trucking, your numbers are great and pilling up day by day!
Asking for help is always a good thing @aircircle. I hope you feel better soon
Loved your check in @Hidden, thank you for sharing.
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I’m so proud of you Chris; you’re doing great…and you’re a dad they are lucky to have. I want to send a virtual hug, (((((
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Day 568 
Gratefull to be sober during these crazy times.
In my drinking days I would have a headache today and feeling sick. I would feel like puking if I saw food. I would feel dizzy while walking. Mentally I would feel shit and ashamed and guilty. Probably I would still lay in bed. Probably I would feel anxious and trying to figger out a plan how to quit.
I’m so glad I’ve got out of that hole!
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I do not want to be judgemental, sorry if you think I was 
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For me: I gave myself an ultimatum. If I weren’t sober after one year of trying I would go see my doctor for help. If that meant rehab, I would go. I do not know the circumances in your country.
And ofcourse, you choose your own path.
But if how you are doing it doesn’t work you have to change something?
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Pfiewwww🤗 I was worried that I said something that hurds you. Not my intention at all!
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