Day 16! I put my next goal at day 20 and I feel calm and relaxed about it. I had a bad self loathing couple of days last weekend, immediately followed by my period so maybe this explains that. I felt so foolish being so hard and awful against myself, saying things to myself I could never say to anyone else and that would break my heart to know are said to my friends.
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Keep your head up @GVLNative… you are always so positive so to see you not your normal self… worries me!! Rest days are good! You have been going hard. I am sorry you are struggling at work, I always hated dealing with negativity in the work place, just remember to leave it at work and be always kind to yourself! 
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Ginger care
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Hey guys! Checking in… Day 19! I havent been on my phone much… I’ve been busy outside finding “buggies”… My life with a two year old. She is obsessed! If its not that she is begging to watch “babies” on youtube. So I try to find buggies as much as possible. We found a quail egg yesterday in some rocks on the path. My fiance almost stepped on it… We thought it was a chocolate egg left over from easter! Its in the bathroom incubating now. We shall see what happens. Lol life is exciting. I dont want to sound super annoying but I am really happy right now and glad I am sober for all this. Not that life is perfect, but I am really making an effort to stay focusing on the positive. 
Happy sober day everyone!
@Girlinterrupted Prayers for your sister:revolving_hearts: @liv_m Hope your pain eases up!! That sounds terrible. 
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That’s awesome. Yesterday I found a round rock in the garden and told my 3 year old that it was a dinosaur egg. She is now convinced that we are gonna hatch a teradactyl 
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Well, here I am, Day 1 of my decision to stay clean and sober!!! It’s not as if I haven’t been here before, just never this determined, and never attempted to use any outside resources.
So, first day to check in!!! I’m here and I’m clean and sober today. I think I will continue learning my way around this app and start working on my profile. I’m anxious to discover the topics that interest me and that I might be able to add something of value to, in the hopes of helping someone else.
I’ll check in tomorrow!!!
Thanks!
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There are so many factors that go into a persons performance an any given single day. Diet, sleep, post workout recovery, taking a good 
, etc. There is nothing wrong with having an “off day” we all have them. Some days when i surf, the waves could be perfect. But if I’m too excited, my timing of the sets is off I spend my session on the inside getting pounded and burn all my energy getting back outside. Just got to chalk it up and get back in the saddle next time. As far as work, it could just be psychological. Sometimes the only thing to fear is fear itself.
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Thats hilarious!! And sooo cute! My daughter wanted to find more easter eggs SO badly I think she willed this egg into existence!
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20 tomorrow my dear friend !!! You got this
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Hello my friend. Please, do not beat yourself up because you felt you were not up to your normal peak levels. You push yourself so, so hard, I have always said “slow down”. You are amazing on your bike rides, the miles /kms and the challenges you set yourself are massive. On top of that you appear to work loads of hours with lots of pressure, so a little rest may help?
Can appreciate the work situation is unsettling, your colleagues are probably feeling the same if the threat of no work is felt. So not needed at an already unsettled time.
Would you ever think of doing a online stretch/yoga class. This could help with your mind and body fatigue.
I personally think you doing dam fantastic, and am hoping you feel better very, very soon. Keep at it. 
Marie
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that is really good @Misokatsu and is encouraging I am sure. Well done 
Your days are moving on well
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Be kind to yourself. Give yourself a break or hit the breaks! 
you are working realy hard on all fronts.
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@Hopeful777 @Maria
Thanks sober twin!!! I needed that.
Sometimes I lose perspective in my hunt for continuous motion and progression. 
I’ve thought about yoga, but just have not started. I am threatening starting weights again too as a little cross-fit. I love cycling, so it is hard to switch off.
I am so glad you are back here!!!
You are doing fantastic yourself!!!
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last part of your share is so powerful!! I was almost an alcoholic with an excuse today. Having made an active commitment here in the morning saved my ass…
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Thanks friend! Indeed a perfect bike for town and leisure rides outside. Pump is included yes. The lights are automatic on/off too which is a nice feature. With the money ‘saved’ for not having to pay for this replacement I decided to get a set of fancy carbon wheels for my road bike. Can’t wait to take it for a spin tomorrow. They’re crazy expensive but since I don’t drink and smoke I can afford some luxury every now and again right.
I hope your legs return fast, as well as your feeling mentally well. Form comes and goes, physically and mentally. And milestones indeed can be dangerous triggers. Keep going friend. Things will get better. maybe a pic of my road bike with new wheels can cheer you up a bit. it certainly cheered me up greatly today!
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#cycleporn I want one!
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@Mno
Nice!!! What a beautiful rig!!!
Disc brakes
Looks like Ultegra Di2
Are those ENVE wheels?
Also rocking brandy new Pirelli P-Zero 4S tires. 25mm or 28mm?
I may have to flag your picture…as @Englishd said…it classifies as porn in my book!!!
You are really a secret member of Team Jumbo–Visma aren’t you?
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stay strong, some day, some how, we got this, I’m feeling it build up inside me, that ultimatum. It might not all ways be when we want it but this is not over.
I don’t just sit here and think it’s OK I’m going to drink, I sit and listen to AA talks on you tube looking for that little thing that makes me think different, it’s coming.
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Thanks! It’s Ultegra, but not Di2. I drove 23 mm forever, tried 28 when it became fashionable but 25 I like best now, so that’s what they are. The wheels brand is Fore, they’re Dutch, handmade. And please don’t blow my cover. I’m a very deep sleeper.
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