Day one of a new beginning of believing in yourself n your strength n ability to move forward n rebuild.
Unbelievable, was just looking you up to message you n see how you are n you reach out. Good to hear from you n that your healing is going well… Congrats on quitting the nicotine. All the best always
Yup I am I’m Calgary weather is beautiful here. But it can change at any moment lol people have started to relax abit hete regarding that covid pandemic. Since things have started opening up again, people are all out and about and keeping the streets busy lol
@Sunnybda
I am sending it out as a challenge to folks that want to be included.
Consider yourself added to the list.
Now thats the 3rd time we reaching out the same time ! I dont believe in coincidence my Brother… The universe is with us.
Be safe bruv
Didn’t realize that. Awesome brother. Stay safe n continued healing.
Checking in on day 29.
That’s super! Good job girl.
Day 13, todays project from a bookshelf to a faux fireplace. To be honest my husband did most of the work with this project today. I started of strong by dropping the new shower thermostat in the stairs so it broked this morning. So now we have to broken ones, and still have to regulate the heat in the shower by turning on the water in the bathroom sink on hot or cold. So when it was time for this project I guess he thought it was best if I just did minor things
How do you feel about it? I usually goes fruitarian every summer, I love it. But it’s hard to keep it up during the winter here.
Three weeks. 21 days. I feel like counting days is somewhat counterintuitive to the program I am following. I am increasingly present throughout my day. I have stopped doing two meetings a day and cut back to the ones with a consistent community of people. I have a standing meeting in the morning six days a week and two or three I enjoy in the evening.
Still making my way and I feel like this time is so different than any others. The ability to bring peace through the knowledge of impermanence is such a gift.
@GVLNative Kyle, I plan to be with you at the six month mark. I don’t want to be tagged though, or reminded how far I have to go. It gives me heart palpitations and a momentary desperate feeling. I have been trying to attain sobriety, at different intensities, for 25 years, off and on. This time truly must be moment by moment, hour by hour and day by day. Future days put me in a crap mindset.
Happy Friday, my friends.
From the equanimity meditation:
“Regardless of my wishes for you, your happiness is not in my hands.” “All
beings are responsible for the suffering or happiness created by their own
actions.” “May you find a true source of happiness.” “May you find peace
exactly where you are.”
It’s so far not bad. I’ve had only 1 physical detox effect so far (canker sores), outside of that my energy is through the roof. Day 3 was moody and sleepy though. I have a sense of calm and a peaceful disposition. One of the main reasons that motivated me to want to try this lifestyle is combating high blood pressure, and pain in my abdominal area due to endometriosis. I get lots of bleeding in between periods. Surprisingly, I’m not spotting and I have no pain / inflammation feeling in my abdominal region. It’s only day 5 and this is a huge positive for me so I’m definitely happy about making this decision! I guarantee that if I weren’t doing this, I’d be spotting in between my cycle right now. I’ll be tracking my progress on here throughout the weeks. I haven’t weighed myself since day 1 because I don’t want to make it about weight-loss. It’s really about health and a transformative way to symbolize my last 55 days until my 1 year soberversary.
Second check in day 363. So I got labelled with Other Specified Personality Disorder, with traits of Borderline and Avoidant Personality Disorder primarily. Look it up if you want and got the time Actually I read some about it and don’t agree. I’m not going to let me be defined by this anyway, although my bestie thinks I will be and is very concerned for my well being, thinking I’ll burry myself in this diagnosis for years to come.
Personally I am glad they offered me Schema Therapy as treatment. I was sort of aiming for that beforehand. Seems to me what I need to get to a better place mentally. Will take a couple of months before I can start probably but at least there’s something on the horizon that offers me some hope and perspective. Thanks for the support all.
PD in DSM V is confusing yes. The guy who did part of my diagnostic interview, Han Berghuis, cooperates in work on the development of an alternative (and to me much more appealing) model of diagnosing and characterizing PD’s . He’s got some interesting writings on it on his website. https://hanberghuis.nl/
I know exactly what you’re saying. Not nice feeling but it will be over soon. Keep strong and away from picking up then just take it day by day.
So awesome. Healing from within. Just finished 3 day juice fast. First meal was overnight oats with homemade cashew milk, chia seeds, blueberries, banana,cinnamon, now having, mixed green salad with chickpeas, tomatoes, cucumber, sprouted sunflower seeds n shredded red cabbage.