Love it there too. They keep making it nicer and nicer. Wish the Mayflower was back for the 400th anniversary. Stupid Covid. Lol
Stay safe and sober tonight. We all can think our way to a better future by recognizing holidays as a test of our willpower and determination. I am happy to be celebrating straight.
I did last year too. My only other 30 day stint. This time feels so much better than last year’s. I know I am so much more prepared to keep my sobriety in tact for much much longer this time.
Thanks for every well wish and like that eveyone gives me. I am very grateful for the kindness that I see on this app. It gives me a real appreciation for my privilege to be part of it.
Be good to yourselves.
Day 178. The 4th of july! Happy 4th to all the Americans on the forum!
Today started slow for me. Slept way to late. So my morning was very unproductive and lazy. I did not plan it. Didn’t want it to happen but it did.
My gf and I had some lunch, drove her to work, came home and did the dishes, cleaned the kitchen.
Now I feel better. I did something productive.
Meeting up with some friends later this afternoon. Some are boozeheads. I hope they don’t drink because I don’t want to be around that. Thank god I’m driving my own car so I have an exit plan.
I’m in the mood to cellebrate the 4th of july too! I’ve always loved the US, NFL, the fact you guys are proud to be an American. You rarely find the pride to be Belgian here…
Checking in at 37.34 days. Spending the holiday alone, getting used to that I guess
I came across some pictures that I took about three weeks after the first time my stbx husband put his hands on me. My face was a disgrace. Still had a black eye and entire lower face and lips covered in bruises. It took over a month for my face to heal. Yet I miss him??? I can look at those photos with zero emotion. It’s taking all I have to not reach out to him lately. Of course he told me if my BPD was diagnosed sooner, he never would have abused me. To an extent I agree, but it’s still not ok. I just need to get to where I believe that now.
I’m so grateful for my therapist, because if I didn’t see him yesterday, I would have called Matt to hang out. When you’re so lonely, sometimes it just feels like something, anything, is better than being alone. I’m so sick of being invisible and alone on holidays.
Other than that, I’m super happy to be sober. Last 4th was a drunken bender shit show. So grateful to have my head back on straight and to be working towards a better life.
Until recently, I had a undiagnosed mental illness, which made me totally irrational and insane sometimes. And yet my husband never put his hands on me. Admittedly, there were lots of fights and conflicts but never, not once, did he touch me.
Day 24, began my morning with yoga and journal. Cooked breakfasts for husband and daughter. I rode my bike to my daughter’s house and delivered her breakfast. Starting my day with intentions to stay sober. It’s gonna be a hot 4th of July in Texas… 101°f. Everyone, be safe and sober.
A man is NEVER right to hurt a woman. NEVER. And he’s actually still abusing you by saying what he does. If he’s right to a certain extent that he hit you because of your BPD all the more reason the stay away from him. It’s him who can’t handle relationships. What he did is on him. 100%. Please get/stay away from him Beth.
Congrats on 8 days and congrats on sleeping 15 hours Jenna. That’s self care right there. Happy for you. Happy you can hear your own body and are listening and responding to it. Relax and rest. Doing good lady.
You’re absolutely right, I get this. I carried that bulls eye for quite a few days in a row. I think I’m finally rid of it for now. Sorry for passing it on to you.
Your ex pulling this shit insults your intelligence IMO. Does he really believe you would even consider this agreement? That’s just crazy!! He needs to lay off or suffer a huge financial burden in the future. But I’m sure he’s too stupid to realize the outcome will only benefit you in the end.
Here they went a bit out of line in the scnd protest wave. Drove thrue fences and blocked an airstrip and also local police stations were blocked with tractors so no cars could response and that part of the action i reject…
Further, quick check in. Unfortunately again forwarded to the hospital for more research couse “shit” still aint good later today on to a bbq with neighbours around the corner i just saw once while walking the dog… bit of a deal for me going to a place with nobody i know but i think i do have to put my fear aside. @mno , hows life m8? Havnt had much time to keep up with the topics and forum. Also @Lisa07 , are you aight? @Girlinterrupted… sending you good vibes and @anon79808082 … how’s everything going over there. Last but(s) not least @SoberWalker and @Flamestar , alles ok met jullie ook ?
.Spending the day with my son and unpacking.Happy 4th!!!Stay Safe and Sober 
I hope you have a great day
later today on to a bbq with neighbours around the corner i just saw once while walking the dog… bit of a deal for me going to a place with nobody i know but i think i do have to put my fear aside.