One of those teams is losing.
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Team addiction getting beat down Iām already hungry for tomorrow
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That makes me smile. Right now my score is 0-0. Me and my addiction are tied 
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Wake up tomorrow and win fight and keep fighting one day at a time
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Day 129
Got an email from my boss this evening that āweā need to do a better job with things. Aka, I need to do a better job. But of course I started worrying that I would get in trouble, that this could lead to termination. Its the furthest thing from the truth since my boss told me I would always be working there unless the place closed.
Its unbelievable how quickly the addicted mind will create a worst case scenario out of nothing. Iāve been working hard on avoiding worry and wait for things to happen and deal with them as I get real information. Easier said than done.
I hope everyone is doing well and staying sober. Keep it up!
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Do you know what he was thinking of, as far as what needs to be looked at? I hate vague insinuations, lol
Yes! I deal with this daily. No idea why our minds spin out of control. There are days I wish to just get fired and be able to move on. But I am grateful for the job.
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Day 9. Today was interesting. I felt like being lazy; just wanted to loung around. I had a undesirable thought which immediately led me to think about relapsing. The interesting thing here is I was able to make a choice instead of being swayed unconsciously. So, thatās nice.
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The email was clear and it is definitely something I need to work on. I knew that I didnt put in my normal effort but I think we all have those moments. Progress not perfection! Haha
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Ok, Iām glad you have clarity then. Onward! 
You sent this to me a short while ago - and I offer it back to you nowā¦
Donāt give up. Youāve still got a lot of trying left in youā¦
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One day down. One moment at a time. Trying not to let any shame or anxiety derail me. Actually, at some moments in the day, when I recalled that āI donāt drink anymoreā - it made me feel relieved - that the ever-present burden of deciding whether or not to (and usually deciding to) had already been resolved. Emphatically, unilaterally, resolved - and non-negotiable. Every time my mind thinks thereās a choice to make, I need to remind it - to remind myself - that indeed there is, and Iāve already made it.
Iāve been practicing saying it out loud today, alone in my wee home with my dog. āOh, me? I donāt drink.ā or āNo thank you, I donāt care for alcohol.ā And to neighbours or colleagues who would know me to take a drink (or more) and may offer me one as our summer progresses? I donāt want to overshare with them - so I might just politely decline and tell them Iām on a sugar-free cleanse. In truth, itās not a lieā¦ if sugar stands for:
Shame
Uselessness (that feeling of being useless post-drinking)
Guilt
Anxiety
Regret and remorse
So yeah - Iām on a sugar-free cleanse. Oh, and I donāt drink. 
Goodnight All - have safe and healthy and happy nights or days or mornings wherever you are,
M 
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Great post!
It made me chuckle; āoh me? I donāt drinkā, 
cute.
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Two weeks! Thatās honestly awesome. Keep it up!!! Youāre inspiring me to keep going though I just ended my first week
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Thank you, Donna! 
Even my dog likes how it sounds! 
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You made my night, Emm!
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Omg thatās amazing 
Congratulations 
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