Checking in Daily to Maintain Focus #14

:astonished: Actually frozen water melon works perfectly as Icecream or slushy.

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  1. I keep thinking of drinking. I think about taking a week off from sobriety, though I know in real life it would end up longer. Iā€™m not sure how to reground myself. Maybe journaling. Maybe an online meeting? I havenā€™t done that at all, worried it might feel alienating but idk.
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Thank you for this! Iā€™m going to write one of these for myself this weekend. Itā€™s like I abandon my own life when Iā€™m not sober - paperwork, staying in touch with dear old pals, taking care of my place, taking care of myselfā€¦ even things I enjoy, like reading.

I know how important it is for me too to maintain AM and PM routines, as ā€œbookendsā€ to a sober day - when I let these things slide (eg AM journal and yoga) itā€™s like Iā€™ve lost the foundation for a sober day, and its so much easier for the other voices to get some air play in my head.

Your list makes me excited for your sober life! Get a puppy yes! And I will make my list too. Thanks again.
Hope you have a beautiful day :hugs: :orange_heart:

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Fantastic! Great job!!! :partying_face:

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Day 144. I havenā€™t been on a good bike ride in over a week, itā€™s really starting to bother me. And itā€™s spce to rain this weekend, I feel like Iā€™m slacking way to much in all of my exercises. Iā€™m on my phone entirely too much, I find myself going back and forth idk how many times a day between this app, fb and snap chat. Iā€™m thinking of getting rid of snap chat and fb and cutting back a bit on here, fb for some reason I think itā€™s going to guide me into a connection with someone and help me meet new ppl and itā€™s really not, I like sharing my sober journey on FB but in reality no one really gives a shit lol. So idk in the playing field on what to do, this is not me in a funk or bad mood. Just trying to take some different actions with my sobriety and Def gotta hop back on the wagon and kill my exercises. Idk happy Friday :crazy_face:

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Checking in sober and sleepy! Yesterday was the second day in a row that I took a three hour nap after work. Went to bed two hours later, fell asleep fine. I still wake up a lot. Not sure if itā€™s my meds or not, but I donā€™t mind a bit. Iā€™ve not napped or even slept more than 5-6 hours a night my entire life, so Iā€™m quite enjoying this :grin:

Have a wonderful and productive sober Friday my friends :sunny::heart::sunny:

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You made mistakes so you have to be the one to take responsibility. Itā€™s hard, but you are the only one who can do it.

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It isnā€™t worth it. The thought of it is good, but that is your brain trying to kill you. Do you honestly think you will be happy if you relapse? I think not. I think that you and I both know that you will hate youself and feel lots of shame and guilt when you do.
oh, and weā€™re sober twins

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You can do this. I think your feelings of getting out of responsibility is normal. Sometimes everything just gets to much and we wish that someone could just come and fix it. And at the same time we want to be free for ourselves to decide. Itā€™s not an easy balancing act, but you are not alone with those feelings.

Regarding your job itā€™s as someone already pointed out a different thing to defend yourself and itā€™s not a bad thing doing it.

Take the time you need to sort the thoughts out on the days youā€™ve got and do like the rest of us and vent here if you need to.

I hope everything works out to the best for you. :hibiscus:

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I find it a great idea to get rid of both snap and facebook. People on facebook only post the good things in their life and never the bad things making you feel like you have a horrible life. People on facebook also arenā€™t themselves. Snapchat can be fairly addictive so i find it very smart to remove that too.

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makes sense to me

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Completely makes sense! I think its that feeling that puts some more gas in our soul tanks to get through the times we donā€™t feel so invincible. That, and ice cream lol! :joy:

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Very happy to hear that your wife is starting to trust you. Next time you think about drinking think about that

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ONE DAY at a time :+1::sweat_smile::pray::kissing_heart::joy:

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Day 5 :heavy_check_mark: Friday without Alcohol :heavy_check_mark: Family celebration where everyone was drinking around me :heavy_check_mark: Actually managed to enjoy myself :heavy_check_mark: Bring on everything tomorrow has to bring :sunglasses:

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Last time sober Iā€™ve been experiencing the same. I think for very active people training-wise itā€™s hard when obstacles to exercises shows up. Howā€™s that meditation going? I started this time of sobriety with the mindset that , yes, Iā€™ll be very active like I use to be and how I like, but also I have to find more ā€œyinā€ activity in case I cannot do the ā€œyangā€ ones. Itā€™s hard to be at peace with passivity at first when we use to drink in those timesā€¦ Mayne switching the phone for some good books, nice movies, practice a new skill you would love to do ā€¦ good day man.

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Great to hear this Charlie! There really is no upside to having that first drink; I think that when I get a craving. :smiling_face_with_three_hearts:

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Day 42. Just found out we have to move out of our apartment by the end of the month. Very stressful. Couldnā€™t sleep last night.

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I deactivated my fb and one person wrote to me about it, lol. I donā€™t even think about it anymore. :woman_shrugging:
Can you do a day pass at a gym if you canā€™t get outside?

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Still kicking. Another day another chance to get better. Be in competition with no one but yourself and make a deliberate effort to be 1 point better than you were yesterday. If we arenā€™t growing weā€™re dying.

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