Day 24 and I am grateful to have this app. I woke up at a time where the day was truly just dawning. Some light but I could still see the last waning stars and watched a bat feed as it swooped and fluttered around its flight path over my rooftop. Cool and serene air caressed my face. So grateful to be sober. I am going for a quiet early morning walk to start my day in a perpetual state of peacefulness. Determined to be helpful, kind and open minded today. Things that alcohol takes away from us. GOODBYE ALCOHOL. YOU ARE FOREVER IN MY REARVIEW MIRROR. YOU WILL NEVER HURT ME AGAIN.
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You can do it bro. From a fellow manawatu local.
Well for that matter he got all the chances in the world to come and see him, call him or whatever. But he doesnāt. The courts decision says that heās supposed to call every other week and talk to his kid. But he doesnāt, he doesnāt even call for birthdays Christmas etc. Iām only stopping him from seeing the boy alone nothing else. Also in the court he claims to have PTSD from a bad childhood and that it causes him to be a ālittle out of balanceā nothing wrong with having problems but if you are āout of balanceā in a way that makes you rape young girls or risking to loose the kids you do have obligations to care for doesnāt make you stable enough to care for an autistic child. But thatās just my opinion. However I would never say a bad word about him when my kids can hear me and I would never forbid him to come to my house and spending time with his kid. Iāve also offered him to spend time with his boy without me but under surveillance of a socal service worker, but he refuses. So for now it is what it is. And thereās nothing in the world that would ever make me leave my child or any of my children alone with him.
Thank you for sharing your story. Iām happy that you do have a relationship with your father nowdays.
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Thank you 
How are things with you today?
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That puts a whole new perspective on things for me. He is a perverted psycho in that case. He may have PTSD, but that does not give him the right to hurt or even rape a minor or anyone for that matter(if this offends someone with PTSD, Iām sorry, thatās not my intention). He isnāt a loving father I seems.
I love how your handling it by the way. I think the majority of moms wouldāve(unconsciously) manipulated their child to hate their father. Thatās what mine did at least.
It takes a lot of decency, kindness, willpower and a good mom not to manipulate them
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Serious congrats on achieving one year! Huge accomplishment!! Couldnāt be happier for you!!!
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Much better thank you. My manager uses some strange tactics in dealing with her employees. Easier work day today and my weekendās almost here. Hugs.
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Day 10 today ! I spoke to my doctor again this morning as my mental health is still not great I seem to be really struggling to find enjoyment in anything I do itās like a switch has been turned off in me and I struggle with bring happy. I have so many blessings in my life that Iām really greatful for but doing every day chores is really hard . My doctor is getting someone from the mental health team to call me to get me help . Wishing you all a blessed day x x
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226 Days: Continuing to do a lot of soul searching.
Ever feel like you are an impostor on your own life? Like youāre deceiving yourself about who you really are? Or that you really donāt know who you are? Thatās where Iām at right now. Iām not happy, Iām not sad, Iām just going through the motions every day. Iāve never been the leader of my own life. Problem is Iāve never really known where I want to go. I need to change that and thatās what Iām going to do. I want to feel at peace, feel joy, feel inner acceptance of who I am, feel in control of where my life is headed.
Have no clue how Iām going to accomplish this 
, but thatās my next step, my next progression. I chose sobriety because I was miserable. Iām definitely in a much better place mentally, emotionally and physically than I was 226 days ago, but I want more!
Happy to be sober, but I still have a lot work to do.
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You are living proof that we can get better at getting better each and every day! So happy for you!
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Completely relate to how you are feeling. We all deserve to feel happy and to enjoy life. Sobriety is a huge step in the right direction. Now keep working for everything else you deserve!
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Sending you love Natalie and Iām so glad you are asking for help. Love you lady xx
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Iām glad to hear that you are feeling better, and that the job situation feels a little bit easier for you now.
Do you guys get vacation like we do? Almost everything closes for 3-5 weeks during summer here, itās what we call the industrial vacation. Every employee have the right to get 5 weeks of/year. If youāve been employed for a year or more youāll get paid vacation, otherwise you still have the right to time off, just not paid time off.
The weekend is close, hang in there.
Hugs 
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Oh my hell I would love this! I might have to move!!
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- Yeah Iām in one of my phases, while yes Iām feeling better and not in any danger I can tell itās here lol. Yesterday, I hate when I say this bc I sound unmanly but I like to tell it allā¦ But I cried, over my running shoes
, bc I just donāt like them Iām not getting good distance in them and they are very uncomfortable. I went for a bike ride after my jog and just wasnāt feeling that. Like I said just getting it out there, not in any danger. Iām trying to dig and see these feelings and find out whatās going on but so far no idea. I know they will pass soon, and Iāll be feeling stronger soon. Have a good Weds
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Happy Canada Day to my fellow sober Canadians
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Day 5.
Back to work today.Grateful for my job I probably should have been fired several times in the past.Prayer and meditation seem to be helping with anxiety and depression.Hope everyone has a good day 
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So I guess itās just in Sweden then?
I know it works differently in US depending on your employment and company. But I thought maybe some other part of the world, or at least Europe had a similar system.
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Iām not a Canadian, but Happy Canadian Day to yāall 
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