That’s really huge, I’m happy for you. I hope you continue to move forward
Will miss you lots sending you lots of love and support xoxoxo. You always have a home here with us. Love the NotBob by the way will miss your humor
Congratulations on your days; the course sounds like a great idea…!
Awesome work!
It’s been happening to me every time. Tomorrow will be 5 months for me. Yeah these last couple of days I was out of it
Closing out day 18 sober. I walked past my father in law in the kitchen earlier as he was pouring a very good smelling whisky before dinner. It was tempting for sure but I walked my sober ass to the fridge and got a seltzer water instead, so one more day in the books. Hope everyone has a good rest of the day.
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Thanks for the feed back. I never really tried to be sober with support before. Never ever made it 6 months without a drink before. For what it’s worth no cravings today. Maybe it really is a thing before we hit a milestone. It would be just like us alcoholics or addicts to mess it all up. Hope I didn’t offend anyone there. But our addiction, I just like to call it the devil, makes us find a way to screw everything up.
I heard a great speaker at one of my kids rehabs once tell us addiction is the Devils perfect work. Nobody wants to be addicted. No body starts out
“gee I can’t wait to get addicted to this DOC. “ Wish I could remember his name. No body wanted to drink til you black out and hurt the ones who love you dearly.
Thanks again y’all in case I forgot to respond to anyone who answered my question.
Day 606. I need to drop everything for the rest of today, so there are some replies I will respond to at a later time. Today’s been rough but I’m doing my best not to dwell on it and to focus on the next right thing.
Day 13
Not unlucky for me today as I ran for 13 minutes today too! Going to make myself a full English for lunch as a reward (well, the best approximation I can do).
Is a full English like a roast beef poboy?
287 Days. I can’t thank all of you enough for the amazing support. You all helped me get through some tough times lately and I’m forever grateful. I keep thinking today is Friday since I’m off tomorrow. It’s such a relief to put this week behind me. I’m going to spend the day tomorrow at the pool with my daughter. I have a lot of other things I need to do but it’s best I make my mental health a priority before I burn out.
I will look forward to the invitation - brunch at Misokatsu’s! Glad you had a good day, a good run, and a yummy breakfast - all good food for the soul!
My new happy sober place - early morning coffee on my little patio garden! Tomatoes, carrots, lettuce, and sunflowers all from seed - the basil and lavender are from the garden centre (this is northern Canada, after all )
By late August I will have tomato salad and (spoiler alert) a milestone!
With hugs, my admiration of all of you showing up to this life, gratitude for your companionship on this journey, and dirty fingernails -
M
Checking in, day 367. Just had a moment of fear/anxiety … now that I’ve passed that 1 year mark, and decided to be open, vulnerable and honest about it with my family and friends, I am getting so much loving, kind responses, which is great, but then I keep having this thought that “shit, I’ve put it out there now, very openly, and what if I can’t do this, what if I don’t follow through, what if I want to drink again…”
I know that’s fear talking. I know I don’t have to listen to it, I get to choose. That’s a lot of “what-ifs” going through my head. I do know that I am a non-drinker now, so that means I don’t drink and won’t have one, even if I “want” one. I know I don’t owe anyone anything except myself, if I want to enjoy my best life, then I know the only way I can do that is sober! Just thought I’d express all this here, rather than let that fear and anxiety fester in my head for the rest of the day. Today is all that matters. Today I will be sober. I’ll let tomorrow sort itself out.
Wow this is so beautiful! I love this so much how peaceful it looks. You will enjoy this space for sure !!
@emc2018 I don’t have even a 10th of the days that you do, and I fear telling people for the same reason - especially those that are closest to me and full of compassion and unconditional love, etc etc, who will cry and hug me, etc etc - but then I will have put it out there, which is putting out more of my own humanness and vulnerability. Ugh. But you said it best:
Thank you for that.
And for liking my patio. I’m still searching for the extra-strength citronella candle that will let me enjoy it more in the evenings, and the mosquitoes less of me!
That looks absolutely beautiful and serene. What a great place to start your day. Enjoy!
Day 177 friday.
Had a little argument with a friend yesterday.
He’s using dating apps to get a date. Asked me to help him write a opening message to one of his matches. I did. She replied. He once again never answered her back… he like’s this match (he claims).
He’s done this before. That made me a bit angry cause he claims he wants a girlfriend but never really takes the shot with anyone.
Always some excuses around the corner.
Anyway. Have a sober friday and tale it easy!