ASD is Autism Spectrum Disorder
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I asked because I recognize a lot of those things with myself, I have ASD too
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Day 17
Back to work.Stay safe and Sober 
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Hey good for you. I would like to know what kept you from drinking during this phase if youād like to shareā¦ I remember when I last got to 6 months I started feeling depressed more then before (but it was in November and I realized later that Iām kinda seasonal depressed from November to march). And I didnāt stick to it the next month I was back at drinking. I think Iāve got more tool in my box then back then, but still, sometimes feelings can get the best of us.
For now Iām not sobbing on anything anymore, like I use to do. I use to say Iām not the kind for meditation. But it does help so much. I do a lot of micro-practice meditation, meaning that when I start feeling anxious or my thoughts are running fast and stuff, I just stop, breath, notice them, stay in there for a couples of minutes, sometimes just seconds, and I disconnect from them and find myself for awhile.
@liv_m good for you and nice for the house 
still in mtl?
Thought of the day:
āTo beā means actually: āTo be on the wayā.
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Day 161 and feeling 
back to myself, like I donāt even remember posting some of the stuff on here everything seriously seems so blurry and I thank all of you for your kind words. I was here but like I wasnt, idk if that even makes sense lol. But hell yeah happy Monday, been focused on hit workouts and boy is it getting ridding of that last lil bit of fat I had. Iām grateful I pulled through this, I didnāt really have any crazy thoughts of drinking. My mind wasnāt trying to get me to drink, but it was seriously just a struggle.
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You chose the oddest day of the week to feel good again haha. Good to have you back
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Day 21 the days seem to be flying by since Iāve gone back to work Iām really enjoying the balance of working in the barber shop and doing my mobile work ā¦ Itās my day off today it was great to wake up early and get things done my new meds are really working well for me my depression and anxiety seem to have disappeared itās so great to feel happy again. Iām wishing your all keeping safe and having a blessed day x x x
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Checking in Daily ALSO. Monday July 13th I will be sober
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Honestly bro I knew 161 days ago when I tried hanging myself that I didnāt ever want to drink again. I know through everyone of these phases that if I pick up the outcome will be the same, I know Iām not healed and can just pick it up again, I know it would be much worse. And I didnāt have crazy thoughts of drinkingā¦at one point I said fuck this sobriety but I didnāt mean it that I wanted to drink, I meant like fuck this sobriety why canāt I loosen up, why am I always on edge, or agitated, but I realize I am actually loosened up alot and itās just the phase that has me feeling like that. I honestly had zero motivation and just wanted to lay down in bed all day everyday, but I picked myself up everyday and continued my workouts and came to work completely miserable and yeah was literally just grouchy pretty much everyday. Alot of it seriously is blurry dude, I felt when the phase was coming and kind of prepared for it the best I could. It was definitely a different feeling then the ones before. I know I feel clear again, and like a whole nother part or me just opened up. Each time these phases pass a new part of me awakens.
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I can totally relate @Lisa07
A 6ft distance, pre-C-19, was too close.
So, how was the dinner? 
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Thanks for sharing. Happy for you 
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Oh trust me still those Monday vibes, but just happy to have that haze lifted.
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Day 14. If every day was like yesterday? Sobriety would be a childās fairy tale. Alas, it is early Monday morning - pre-work but Iāve popped open my work inbox already, to find that the ogres and trolls and wicked witches were only taking the day off too!
No, seriously though, I do find that - even in these early days - being sober means being present to the external things around me, as well as my thoughts and feelings and how they change and shift even just a bit from one moment to the next. All these things that alcohol covered over. Sobriety feels a bit like an archaeological excavation, if that makes sense? (Hopefully, I find more than a dinosaur skeleton or shards of pottery on this journey inside myself! 
). Some moments, some whole days, are TOUGH. Even yesterday, enchanted as it was, came with a moment or two of sadness here and there, recalling something that I probably hadnāt allowed myself to fully feel before.
Grateful for days like yesterday. And grateful to be sharing this journey with all of you.
Okay, itās time for a second cup of coffee to face that troll under the bridge!
Happy Mondays to all -
M 
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Nice! Send some nice pictures of Denver; Iāll probably never make it out there, lolšāāļø
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Hi, today Iām starting a new bid at getting sober. After being sober for 15 months then relapsing for 7 months, and by 7 months I mean drinking every day, most days sun up to sun down. Anyway, today is a good day to come back to the company of you fine people. Iām looking forward to reconnecting with friends I have made here. Thank you in advance for your supportā¦
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Day 17 sober. I am resting with my family some days. I am grateful to be sober with them. I can be more present. I know I have a lot to heal but I take my time and I try to live focused in the 24 hours
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