Oh wow magical! And poop, sorry! Search thin mask
When I got home from the vet, I was feeling pretty down, and I just wanted to block it all out. I realized that if I didnāt give myself something all encompassing to do, Iād do something that I regretted. So I changed and hopped on the treadmill and listened to music at what was probably an ear damaging level. The point wasnāt to get any specific kind of work out but to do something sort of mind numbing. I did fit in a core and glute work out after walking at a 4.5 incline for 40 minutes.
And I did feel better after; not just about my situation, but also just in general. Which was good because when I hopped in the shower, I quickly found out that my pilot light had gone out on my furnace Nothing like a cold shower to get the heart pumpingā¦ again.
@Misokatsu Thank you. I really appreciate it. And hang in there yourself. I know youāre having a rough time at the moment. Take it one day at a time.
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Almost 8 months. Still here.
Iām so proud of you @Chiron! You deserve a huge pat on the back for handling that situation so well. You did exactly what you needed to do in order to overcome that urge. Iām glad you posted this, others can definitely learn from your experience.
Thank you. I appreciate you saying so. Itās so easy to cave in the moment and forget about long term goals, especially when life throws curve balls.
I watch one of theseā¦get me every timeā¦
Terms of Endearment
Brokeback Mountain
Marley & Me
The land before time always gets me.
3 months, 4 days, 16 minutes, 16 seconds.
That is where I stand against alcohol.
I feel very so good. I wake up really early each day to run. This would be a no go when I drank. I no longer have to hide my vice from people. I am free to go places anytime of the day. I am not as stressed and depressed. I have energy and donāt binge on food like I used to. I lost 12 lbs in a couple months. I am able and wanting to spend more time doing the things I love. I am so proud I made it this far and when I see others doing it I feel so good for them. I am rooting for everybody who is fighting an addiction right now. This portal has been a major tool in keeping me accountable to myself. Thank you everybody.
Wow! Thank you for opening up like that. Iām 9ādays sober
Day 23. Dead tired, but sober. Had a good chat with work (boss, colleagues, my team, etc) about expectations and work-life balance, etc (after pulling an almost all-nighter each week the last three weeks) and everyone is supportive - now i just have to do my part to protect my own time and enforce my own boundaries!
Triggers galoreā¦
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Contractor wanting to show appreciation to me for working to meet deadlines has apparently arranged delivery of a wine and gift basket. The company that makes these called me today and said they donāt deliver during covid, but I can come and pick it up tomorrow.
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@Chiron I might not have said anything, but since you did, I will too. Happy Birthday to us! In 2 days (on Friday) - Iāll be 25 days sober on my 50th birthday. Iām happy and excited about it, but in a nerdy, quiet way. Was thinking I could get away with no public celebrationsā¦ i donāt live close to my besties and we have a hiking trip planned in August anyway, but now I know that my work colleagues here and my neighbours know about my birthday, and I anticipate that I will be gifted no less than a half dozen bottles of wine within 48 hours. H.E.L.P. They are all really kindhearted people, and we get along well, but (no judgment!) most of them are not exactly embracing a TS lifestyle! And I havenāt shared my 23 days of sobriety, which is easy as we are still working from homeā¦
Iām taking Friday/bday off work and have a good full fun day planned here (hike and yoga, 90 min massage, i bought a beautiful new journal , sushi zoom dinner, online music fest with a bestie at night) but I think I am going to get out of town now for the rest of the weekend to avoid the invites here and wine gifts. I feel unsettled thinking about what well-meaning folks want to do to celebrate. Am gonna throw my dog and my tent and some seltzer in the car and get out of here early on Saturday morningā¦ my sobriety is still too new. Thoughts?
@Chiron you and your cat are welcome to join me! Or I can just tell my world here that my dog and I are spending bday with my younger twin and her cat - me on my trails and she on her treadmill! I hope your cat makes a solid recovery. I understand your fears about loss, especially right now, and wish many more days of love and companionship to you and your kitty.
This is long and rambly. Thanks to anyone who is still here!
Gānight, beautiful humans. Thank you for sharing your stories and your strength,
M
307 Days. After a long hard day of work, I went to a comedy show. Well, I didnāt actually go anywhere. It was on zoom. My daughter and I had dinner while watching and laughing our asses off. This is the closest Iāve come to ādinner and a showā in a long time. There were 4 comedians and they all had experience performing on this platform. I guess itās the new norm for them and us. My company and clients have been doing these for free to help boost moral. I really enjoy them and look forward to more.
That sounds so fun! A good way to be entertained during this corona mess.
Day 36. My day started out horrible. Woke up filled with anxiety and extremely depressed. Figured I should go take care of some things so I could keep my mind busy but my car was dead. Waiting for a jump made me want to crawl back in bed. But I didnāt. Got to where I needed to be just to find out they were closed. Came back home and did busy work around the house on all the things I have been neglecting. The moment I stopped and sat down the tears began to flow and they just wonāt stop. But I am still sober and that I shall be grateful for.
Day 675
It was an emotional rollercoaster yesterday
After I told you guys here that my son would get released from the hospital his back pain returned. So again they had to give him an intravenous drip to help him. They decided to operate inmediatly to get the kidney stone out.
So he got surgery yesterday and it went well.
Itās not the vacation I expected to have
But still sober and happy my son is pain free again. Kidney stones are very painfull I know now
Good morning my lovely ts family. Just checking in while Iām able to sit peacefully before my day starts . Iām off work today and going to get my hair cut and coloured I canāt wait as Iād never be able to afford this treat if I was still using drugs . Iām also going to see my new sponsor to do some more step work Iām so greatful and blessed to have her in my life sheās helping me so much and Iām feeling so positive about my recovery again I feel like Iām buzzing with joy and I really like my new found happiness. Iām sleeping so much better now Iām on new meds I still wake up a couple of times a night but itās no where near as bad as before. I hope and pray for each and every one of you on here and wish you all a blessed day x
Wishing your son a quick recovery.
Blessings and sobriety!