that’s how I feel today and as long as we’re sober it’s enough for now. Well done.
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@Natnat I also have few friends. I feel guilty about not being with family, then bad I have no friends. Compounded by not driving. So I get u. I can’t believe ur sponsor dumped u over relapse, sounds like the opposite of what a sponsor should do.
@jjcarson92 Chin up😊. Sometimes things don’t work out, but u have to focus ur energy on the things that are or will work out.
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Look at you Paul, good job man… Keep up the good work my friend and continue to be an inspiration to us all. 
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Atta Boy 
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- Today was a jam packed day - 6 hours “in clinic”, met with a friend who is a practicing acupuncturist and who I’m planning to work with when I graduate. It was great to “talk shop” with him about stuff. My mom fell yesterday and sprained her foot really bad so I had to go over and do some things around the house for her. Had my first meal at 7pm! Now I’m just exhausted. But as stressful as today was it was also very rewarding and fulfilling. Today was a perfect reminder of how none of this would be possible if I wasn’t sober. There is no way I could help my patients if I was still drinking - it would be hypocritical of me #1 to promote health and wellness yet destroy my own, #2 I wouldn’t have the stamina or mental capacity to clearly diagnose, treatment plan, and provide treatment, and #3 I wouldn’t be able to make it a priority when drinking and partying would have been competing. So, grateful to be sober!
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5 years of self employment while drunk, hardly earning enough to stash money away to pay bills on time let alone stash away for taxes. It’s finally time to pay the piper and I’m so fucking overwhelmed. Just hired a tax attorney and CPA to file my unfiled taxes from 2016 to 2019. They are expensive but hoping it’s worth it to negotiate these late fees down and penalties away because otherwise I’ll owe upwards of $40,000 to the IRS. I haven’t been this stressed out in a while but I’m getting through it and am willing to buckle down, work hard and do what I have to do. Wish me luck. 
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Oh man, Shay, that is alot of stress. Good luck, hun.
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Aw, Shay, you don’t need luck. You have Talking Sober, a lawyer and a CPA - a team! And your amazing sobriety. What else do you need, really?
Every little thing (and the big ones too) is gonna be alright.
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Thank you 2 for the reassurance. Honestly, I almost had a panic attack today while going through years of emails trying to find receipts for deductibles for every aspect of my life and business. Requesting bank statements. Having to fill out these forms. Requesting 1099’s from every gig I’ve done like grub hub uber lyft… a w-2 for a job that lasted no longer than a month, robinhood investment statements for small stocks i was just playing with in 2018. Omg. Answering the tedious document statements. I have to comb through 4 years worth of shit to make it cheaper for myself in many ways because if the CPA does the book keeping it’ll really cost me. It’s $375/hr. I’m trying give them every little thing I possibly can to reduce any cost. It’s alot but I’ll get through this and will learn from it. I’ll never put myself through this again. It’s a learning experience for sure.
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Day 188~ I can’t come up with words tonight. There’s too much going on in my head. I’m sober. Nothing’s fucking with that. Tomorrow will be better. It has to be. 
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Day 14. Feeling blah. Work was boring, which is fine bc it’s been nonstop crazy for a while now. Got to visit with my bfs 1yo nephew this afternoon. So cute! And it was nice to see his brother/sister in law as well. Idk, nothing much else to say I guess except Blah! Goodnight everyone
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335 Days. Thank you all for acknowledging my 11 month achievement. I’m grateful for all the feedback. @CapriciousCapricorn reminded me of the best change possible and that’s the time with my daughter. I guess I’ve had so many challenges that I’m blocking the positives. I’m sure there’s many more so I need to put these down on paper like @C_8 mentioned. The love and support on this forum is priceless. I get so much out of reading responses on various threads that I’d never get in my daily life experiences. If your new, please take some time and just read. This forum has an extraordinary wealth of knowledge and experience.
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Day 501. I finally found a job that suits me. Since day one on this site I’ve had five different jobs now. Currently, I’m doing construction carpentry work in the mountains in Japan. The cast of characters here is incredible. I told my friend one of my goals in life is always to have new stories to tell, and I have a new one everyday now. It’s been fun so far, and my language skills are improving quickly. No chance for anything like this to happen if I hadn’t quit drinking! 
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I’m putting day 9 to bed, the climb continues tomorrow, goodnight you beautiful people…stay well…
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Good luck lady . When this is done you can be so proud of yourself . 
Checking in day 25
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“Make improvements, not excuses. Seek respect, not attention.”
― Roy T. Bennett
Day 33
Been having a problem with my front door. You can see the light outside when it’s closed, and in the winter you don’t even have to be standing close to it to feel the cold air. When you push on the door it fixes the problem, so for some reason it’s not closing right. It’s an issue I’ve had for several years, but didn’t take care of it. I thought it was just the weather stripping being worn out, so I changed out the weather stripping.
It was not the weather stripping. 
So now it’s even worse. I’ve read up on some possible things it could be and how to fix it, but it would require some tools and skills I don’t have. So I’m going to call around to some handy men and/or contractors and see who I can find to fix this issue. I’d like to get it taken care of before the weather changes.
@Jennajen I’m really sorry to hear you’re feeling this way. We could all do so much more, but in the end it’s important to be able to teach ourselves that whatever we do is enough; that we are enough. I know how hard it is to know one thing logically but emotionally feel something else. You should know that you definitely have a lot to offer and you’re a really great part of this forum. You’re doing the best you can and you have 54 days under your belt. You are doing amazing.
@Misokatsu Fewer intrusive thoughts = more days on your counter! Good job!
@anon86726034 I feel you so hard on this. I’ve done the same thing or gone through and pared down something I said because I knew it was really long. The internet is hard on long winded people. 
@Jonachav123 You’re doing good. Just hang in there. You’re reaping the rewards of not drinking by not waking up with a horrible hangover.
@Butterflymoonwoman 4 days is great. You’re doing amazing. Keep it up!
@Desire2ChangeToday Christ on a cracker! That’s a lot of money. I’d be stressed too. I hope the tax attorney and CPA help. This is already a stressful time, no need to compound it with the IRS too.
@Lisa07 11 months! That’s awesome! You’re doing amazing! You’re almost to one year!
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