Today I’m feeling positive about my recovery. I’m not feeling the greatest physically tho bcuz i havent sleep well in 2 days. But tonight ill get some good rest. I’ve already got alot accomplished so far… but have lots left to do around the apartment. Just threw on a pizza 
and then going to do some self care.
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Great job! 30 days is awesome! It sounds like you’re on the right track.
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Thank you. It feels pretty good. 
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Hi everyone. Well, I’ve just rolled over onto 17 days, so the 21-day counter isn’t too far away… I’m pleased about that.
Things are going all right here in Brussels, but I’m really looking forward to getting home (hopefully) on Friday. I’m really hoping that my clients DON’T ask me to stay on for another week, but if they do, well… then I’ll probably stay. It’s not a hard job and the pay is quite good, so… well, we’ll see what happens, anyway.
So today I had a nice pizza for lunch. In the (not so distant) past, I would have ordered AT LEAST a couple of glasses of red wine with that. Do I miss the wine… ? Somewhat, I have to be honest. But, not enough that I actually felt any real desire to order even one. It was a nice pizza, a glass of Coke, a good coffee… and going to bed sober with 17 days under my belt.
I hope that everyone is having a good and sober weekend.
To those of you having some problems this weekend, well… we’ve all been there, and we’re all HERE.
Thank you all for your posts. I’m sorry that my own posts are usually pretty depressing and self-deprecating, but that has been my pattern for decades, and I feel that it’s too late for me to do much about that. Anyway, I find it helpful to read posts from the rest of you.
Goodnight everyone… have a happy and sober Sunday.
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It dates back to long before wine ever became a factor in my life… now it’s just who / what I am.
@anon79808082 thank god for talk of guitars, it was the first distraction and music to my ears today.
Thank you.
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You’re welcome, sweetie; you’re there for me and others. I knew that was one of your happy places…
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any news on Mike
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No, nothing. I hope we here from him soon.
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AA has been really great so far. I am liking the 7am mtgs on Saturday and Sunday, its a nice positive way to start both of my weekend days. I’m working with that guy George I wrote about before, who is acting as a temporary sponsor. He’s been in the program 30+ years and has got to be one of the most positive people I’ve ever met. He’s just got so much peace in him, it’s palpable.
Through George, I’m looped in with a group of younger guys in my age range. All at the same Tuesday night home group. One of them is a potential sponsor (he offered), and I’ll probably take him up on that. They’ve invited me to their informal big book discussion each week.
Crazy how it’s really grabbed me this time around. Just that first mtg I had so many “holy shit” moments/realizations, and they just keep coming. The community is great, too. I leave with a few new friends every time. It’s nice to laugh again.
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Love to hear this!!! Sounds like you found an amazing group of people. 
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It sounds like to me like your dealing with your shit pretty well. Good job on the pizza and coke. Keep up the good work. We’re all here to share the good and the shit.
Thanks for the reply everyone. I’m just tired, still kind of feeling like crap and have not been able to hit up a meeting. I was hungry, tired, just being hard on myself. Mind trying to trick me into drinking. I want to be a badass sometimes and just let loose, I hate being a good boy
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Day 198~What a fucking day. I’ve been an emotional wreck pretty much all day. Got shit for sleep first of all. My mind wouldn’t stop. It’s like shut the hell up!!! Woke up to some sad news about a friend and having only a few months to live. He’s a tenant of ours but it really hit me hard. I’ve been crying on and off all day. Life can be so unfair. I miss my mom. I miss my sweet dog teddy… Just a suck ass day all around. I’m so sick of assholes and people who feel the need to treat others badly. Hello… the saying saids if you can’t say something nice don’t say anything at all. Or don’t do to others what you wouldn’t want done to you. I’m not a fan of calling people out and making them feel bad or less than. I dunno. Guess I’m just getting fed up with people and their BS. I’m sober so that’s all that matters. Sorry for the pissed off rant 
as you can tell when I’m upset I tend to vent and swear like a sailor. Moral of my day. Your not for everyone. You cant please them all and life can really be unfair sometimes. No matter what though gotta keep fighting to stay on this sober journey. We have good days and bad days but in the end it’s all good. Life and being sober is all good. Gotta keep on keeping on. 
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Yes… keep up the fight for sure! Shit is unfortunately part of life. Wishing you the best through this rough time.
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Day 34…enjoyed some yummy marmite toast today. I’m trying to load up on gluten for my food allergy test and this is quite fun!
Hope everyone is enjoying their sober Saturday!
Cheers!
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Love this stuff, misses hates it but likes Vegemite.
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Yeah, but here’s a thought… drinking to be bad ass is so overdone, old, even lame. The new edgy is sober. Facing the crap and demons and all of it sober is not being a good boy, it’s brave and bold. It is the road less traveled. If it were easier, it’d be the norm.
You’re one of the leaders on this thread. You’ve ridden out these urges before and you’ll do it again. I have no doubt. 
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