It will and you will, it never feels that way but the old cliché is true, Time is the greatest healer. Bonus points bc that’s not a lie it’s a fact. Keep loving yourself and love will be drawn towards you. 
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Dreams can really be the worst. Talk about our brains retraumatizing us without our consent! Take heart in the knowledge (that you already know, I’m sure) that this, too, shall pass. Try doing some meditation or intention before bedtime. My husband is certain that we can control our dreams, he’s big into the lucid dreaming idea, I’m not so sure, but it might be worth a try.
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You will, Rob; I know it feels like you’ll never get that chance to but I’m stopping short of promising you, you will.
You love deeply and completely and the next time it will be reciprocated. Love will be even better because of all this personal work you’re doing.
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Maria - it is good to read/hear from you. I am so glad and hopefully to connect with you again. You have so much to offer and I am sorry you are struggling with so much pain. Thank you for still being here!
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90 days. Got here last time and no further. Struggling to stay sober, not sure why after getting to this point?
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You’re doing so well; go back and read your old posts about how you felt when you were drinking.
Alcohol isn’t going away anytime soon so it’s up to us to learn to have a life without it ruining everything.
Choose a life well lived.🙋
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Great job on the 90 days. That’s wonderful. I heard, myself included, of people struggling to get that 90 day goal. But you got it!! Just one day at a time. Be proud of yourself. Maybe now you got it it doesn’t seem like that big of a deal. Kind of a let down. You done some great work! Is there something in particular that is stressing you and making you want to drink?
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I also had a dream I fell in love with a Chinese girl at work, there are no Chinese girls at work but I did watch the legend of monkey on Netflix before bed. When I woke up I was all sad bc I’m never going to see her again. 
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it’s bc certain milestones leave us with a sense of achievement and that sense of achievement makes us think thank god for that I finally did it, I can relax now and take a break.
Afraid not my friend its business as usual. Congrats BTW. 
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Thanks Dazercat and everyone for the comments. Nothing in particular stressing me. The old desire has just resurfaced out of the blue. I’ll keep checking in for a while.
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I’m just at 92 days, we can be on the same page moving forward!
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I love seeing you checking in. My heart just melts. I remember how hard you were struggling a few years ago, and here you are doing it. You’ve worked so hard and it makes me so happy. Just had to say that 
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That’s brilliant Donna! I’m glad we are both still going 
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Just had a conversation with my husband, the first time I’ve shared some of what has come up in therapy and it didn’t take long for him to make an offhand comment about me being stubborn and not trying hard enough in the past. I walked away and took a break. Came back and just started a conversation about dinner and he acknowledged that he was out of line and we had a productive conversation. He said he spoke out of turn and said he “wasn’t really listening” before and I told him how much that hurts, that I knew that as soon as he started talking and maybe I don’t want to share what is coming up in therapy with him now if he is going to say hurtful things. I said we need to be focused on now, sure the past is important too but not as ammunition. I think there is some clarity coming for both of us.
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Day 10. Not much else to say. Gonna give it another try.
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96.82 Days… I’ve been an angry bird today, but sober.
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Thank you @Dolse71, @RosaCanDo and @anon79808082 I appreciate your kind words. Sorry I’m still struggling with this after so long I really appreciate your support. Thank you 
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Thank you!!! Man, looking back on it now I can’t believe that I’ve made it this far. I was in such a dark place and it felt like I would never get out. And now, I’m in such an incredible place, I wouldn’t change it for anything. 
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Things are going well. I went bald today, the reason is that I felt kinda insecure these days and I remembered that I’m a man. Hair and looks don’t make a man better, character does. Feeling better and better, this sure is a great journey.
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