Thanks! I’ll check it out!!
Thank you Emma. 
I know you understand. I’m definitely trying to ease her burden without taking on too much of it. It’s a fine line to navigate.
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Thanks so much for your prayers. I really appreciate them and believe in the power of them!!
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Day 10 complete, into day 11 now. I’ve really struggled today, not to not use, but just mentally, I haven’t felt good or been able to do much. I only managed 9 mins of a film I’ve been trying to watch, even though it’s good. Just kept coming back to lay on my bed and read on here. I meditated for a few hours this afternoon and then managed a walk, so that’s something I guess. I just wish I felt better, I know with my mental illnesses there will always be days like this, but it always hits like a tonne of bricks. Now I have a migraine too but that’s probably from all the screen time, I should probably start wearing my glasses when I’m doing so much reading on here. I’m glad it’s nearly the end of the day, I can atleast hope I might feel better tomorrow, and an audiobook I pre-ordered a couple of months ago is due out tomorrow too, so that’s something to do as well. 11 is one of my favourite numbers too, so here’s to day 11!
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Crikey, I had to check I was still alive this morning. My mother called me earlier to check I was OK. Apparently she saw me in the doorway of her bedroom. She asked me how I got there and I just faded away. She had to look around her house to check I wasn’t there since it was so real.
I know I was having some out of body sensations/“astral projection” when I was withdrawing from prescription meds last week but I didn’t realise I could project more than a hundred miles!! 
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Seemed like a long day at work today. People really annoy me 
got landed with something to look at Friday evening and I wasn’t looking at it then
Had a look today and the customer emails me and asks what’s the update with this. Sometimes I take things like that personally and end up replying saying wait a minute I only started looking at this today and I’ve other stuff to be at but didn’t, they can wait until tomorrow even for a reply
So a a bit of dinner and tv this evening 
Wow, what an exciting day
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I’m sorry you feel unwelcome. I bet you know not everyone is like that - most of my friends are sober and would gladly hang out with a sober Mike too 
My goodness, idk if you can see it at all funny way but this thing with the-woman-from-work has soap opera material. Reading your posts I hope to get an update what she’s been up to this time
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Day 14: It has been a good decision for me to keep my mornings busy and then slow down for some more in depth work or down time in the afternoons. I feel accomplished and like my “chores” are out of the way so I can read or journal or sit on the deck and spend time with my pups. I am planning for my hubby’s birthday this weekend, and will be cooking some of his favorite things this week. Tonight I’ll be prepping a pork roast in the slow cooker for carnitas tomorrow. Savory carnitas tacos with cilantro and diced white onion, a squeeze of lime and that’s all you need. I used to buy him a fancy bottle of booze and a “few” six packs of his favorite craft beers for pretty much every special occasion, along with a few bottles of wine for myself. We have already discussed how this is not happening anymore. Labor Day holiday was a huge reminder for us both of why not. He’ll still drink, but he’s got home brew and what he purchases and imbibes is up to him. He’s good at keeping it on lock and being respectful (except when he still realllllly wants me to give his treasured home brew a taste). I’m feeling good about that, but I do feel some nostalgia creeping in already. I think it’s going to be a challenge for me and I’ll probably be checking in here a ton. Thursday night starts off birthday weekend. Sorry in advance for any repetitive posting on my thoughts and feelings! And as always, sharing your thoughts and experiences is absolutely welcome and appreciated.
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I was just doing a trial with noom and I can see how it would work. The meal tracking made me very aware of what i was eating. BUT i stopped logging meals and in my kitchen at this moment there is cake, cupcakes, bagels, muffins, ice cream…i have no control and love treats! it was also my daughters birthday so there’s a pretty good reason
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Yum carnitas sounds yummy! I’m glad he’s being respectful. It helps to have a supportive partner. You’re doing amazing! Keep it up twin! 
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- Been having a hard time understanding what is going through my sisters head. For those of you who have known me on this, know my older sister is an alcoholic and was addicted to synthetic heroin. She went to rehab twice-first time for drugs & alcohol the second time court mandated for alcohol and was in jail for four weeks due to violating her drug court because she couldn’t stop drinking. She’s been in recovery for over four years. Yesterday, her wedding shower, she was drinking wine-nonchalantly. My mom said “I didn’t know you drink” and she gave her some bs reply. So bullshit enough my mom said “oh then I’ll send all the extra hard seltzers home with you.” I don’t want to ask, but I’m very confused. She drank like me-throughout the day small amounts to keep her functioning. I’m not sure how she is able to drink again? Idk. Just concerning and once again a let down because I thought she was my idol…I guess she thinks she can drink in moderation. Makes me question everything
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Great numbers Emilie 567 I like it!
Checking in on day 8. It’s getting better, no craving during daytime, evening is smoother than before. Went running in the evening, sport helps a lot.
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thought i’d drop a comment and say i just celebrated my birthday 
this is my second sober birthday and i’m so pleased with myself for getting to the mental place i am now. i hosted 6 other folks and we ate/cooked a lot, some drank, lots of laughs and adventures. it was a weekend in a cabin on a river, in the woods. if i was drinking there would have been no way i could have cooked and enjoyed the family style meals we did. i would have been focused on getting drunker and drinking my meals, then waking up hungover and not doing anything. bye, bye past life. 
happy 35 to me!
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Happy birthday to you!
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F yeah! Happy birthday to you, Claire. Sounds like a fantastic weekend.
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Happy Birthday 
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It won’t be long before we’re at 2500 entries.
Hi everyone, just a quick word to say goodnight. Tomorrow is going to be a fun day, I’m going to look at a new VW that I’m considering, and I’ll be picking up a recent purchase. I’m looking forward to that.
So I’m just about to hit 40 days, any moment. My intermediate goal of 45 days isn’t far off… and then shortly after that, off to Greece for some scuba diving !
Anyway, goodnight everyone, I hope that you’ve had a safe and sober Monday.
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