Happy Birthday Claire! Sounds like a really fun sober weekend. Glad you enjoyed it.
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Get lots of rest and fluids Dan.
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I was like that yesterday.
How can you find your HP and connect to it? What has worked in the past for you?
For me, talking sincerely with loved ones helped. And a kind of meditation.
Hope you be well,
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Prayers for your mom 
So happy to hear about your dad. Hang in there. They are lucky to have a son like you.
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Well I guess we’re all obsessed in a way… I guess at the beginning it’s fine to be obsessed with sobriety. But it might be a point ( I only dare to imagine since I don’t have a lot of sober experience) where the focus switch from sobriety for itself to a higher goal, like enjoying life in recovery… I really don’t mean to do anything that compromise your sobriety, but that maybe at some point, from the power that sobriety gives us we can focus on our self development and grow etc. Etc…
anyways it’s late here, but I get what you’re saying. I am limiting my Instagram/FB time as it doesn’t really help me to anything but procrastinating and distraction, but I am not going to limit TS time for now, too early in recovery. I guess I will consider it as I am already thinking about it. Maybe I’ll start cutting at night in the bed first as i want to sleep better and my phone doesn’t help that.
What do you like to do or things you’d like to learn? I understand news and twitter mostly play in our head more Than produce anything helpful , like here per say. But maybe you can put some time on looking for something that interest you ? Just some thoughts.
Good night all,
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Reaallllyyyy interesting book I’ve started. Anyone interested in zen/oriental philosophy, novel, mental illness and metaphors of life… I enjoy the ride.
It’s very interesting when you read the way he talks about his “motorcycle maintenance” when you have in head that the real cycle he is starting about all along is the cycle of our own life. I relate in a lot of way into recovery with this one. Plus, the author was diagnose schizophrenic earlier in his life , don’t know if it was a misdiagnose , but the guy have an interesting background.
I am more into philosophy/psychological books, have only red 2-3 novel in the past year, but this one is a 400pgs long that I am enjoying a lot right now. Good night all,
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You probably don’t have as many cases as we do here then. No one wants to follow instruction 
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368 Days. What a great start to the week. I was able to recover the excel document I lost on Friday. It was the biggest relief. In the past, I would have let it wreck my weekend. That’s some progress right there with the help of the serenity prayer.
My daughter is having a hard time again and experiencing quite a few meltdowns. My patience was running low and I could feel my emotions building up. I was finding myself starting to raise my voice which is very out of the norm since becoming sober. My womens Monday night AA meeting resumed today and I was able to share about it. I came home feeling like a big weight was lifted and now my patience has returned. I have to remember, I can’t control how she feels nor can I allow her issues to become mine. All I can do is comfort her and listen.
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Glad you recovered the excel doc.
Hopefully the rest of the week will be good too. Can’t help you with the daughter. But when they or mine turned 26 everything became awesome again. Probably not much of a help there. Sorry. 
Lots of praying and Alanon helped me 
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I love it! I think that’s half the battle right there. Instead of saying “this weekend I won’t drink” (or tonight, for that matter), i’ve started to reframe it in my mind as “what will I do instead”? Having something fun or relaxing to look forward to, especially something I wouldn’t enjoy or be able to do if I was drinking, seems effective at kicking those cravings to the curb!
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I know what you mean! @Girlinterrupted writes so well about it (calling her batshit? I lol’d for real) that I get excited to read the post! I know the incident last week was gut-wrenching and traumatic (and abusive, frankly), but since then, your grit and common sense, Beth, just show how to take the high road - you haven’t sunk to her level, but you haven’t let her get away with anything either, and you def haven’t lost your sense of humour. I picture it being “filmed before a live audience” and we’re in the crowd cheering on our Girlinterrupted! (So take that, batshit! 
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Ok, me and my calm yogic 50 year old self are going to try return to maturity and non-judgmental self awareness now… (but still, I’m on team Beth!)
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Day 84.
A full out Monday. I’d have had a bullet proof case to support a drink tonight (and more) before I even made it to lunch - were I looking to build such a case.
It wasn’t even about craving a drink just for the drink, but wanting a coping mechanism or escape from any one of a number of stressors. But you know what? There is no stressor - not my work, not the family stuff, not even grief - that has the power anymore to take away my sober days. I would have to choose to give it that power - the choice will always be there, and always be mine.
From my apres-work walk with the dog girl…
@mleclaire the whole situation is baffling and sad. how are you with it now? i don’t know your story well, but you’ve obviously overcome so much…
@claire-lo yay birthday! happiest of these to you!
@RosaCanDo check in as often as you need. and share your recipes!
G’night all - big love 
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I’m so glad you were so strong and I guess you realized being sober is a pretty pretty good coping mechanism. Good for you.
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Oh and nice pic. 
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Indeed! It’s like a reflex to think about a drink - and then when I actually think it through, I feel so much relief to face anything stressful with a clear mind.
And then rainbows pop out of the sky as a beautiful reward! Tough to find anything to complain about…
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Day 221~ Sober, blessed, and tired 
that sums up today. My heart is full and I’m thankful for another day of living sober. I’m learning to really appreciate the moment and people in my life and “Stop and smell the roses” 
I’m surrounded by those who love and care for me something I haven’t always felt in the past… and that was greatly due to my drinking. I caused a lot of unnecessary shit. How in the actual hell did I go on like that for that long?! Either way that’s the past and I will NEVER be in that place or that person again.
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@M-be-free49 and @Olivia, Y’all are not kidding Honestly it’s at the point it is funny. I mean that’s all that’s left. I realized I don’t care what she thinks, I just want her to know that she’s wrong, and well, batshit. But that will never happen and it would just be banging my head against a wall. She’s just weird!!! We no longer speak, just hi and bye and let each other know when we are coming and going and if we have meetings at the office. I let her know because of course the sound of life is nails on a chalkboard for her. So, a little interaction from today, nothing all that juicy as we are very short and “polite” now:
BETH
Hey There,
I wanted to give you a heads up, I have two groups coming in tomorrow to present. One is at 10:30am and the other is at noon. All the guys will be in the office, Greg’s voice booms a bit, so I just wanted to let you know because we’ll be out in the conference area.
BATSHIT
You crack me up. I will stay at home until your meetings are over. With that said, can you just shot me an email to let me know?
BETH
Sure can!
I have a zoom later in the day but can just close the door 
BATSHIT
I don’t want to stay away all day… that would not be fair to me, but I will do so for your meetings.
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I so badly wanted to say, the fuck? Who said you can’t come to the office? 
I just let it go and didn’t bother replying.
Stay tuned for some more Chronicles of Batshit. I’m sure she won’t be able to contain herself much longer. What we have here is a stage 5 Karen.
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I’d say, well in that case, we have meetings all week! See you in October!
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Thank you Kevin. You’ve got a lot going on with your parents and for you to take the time think about me is really selfless. Keeping you and your family in my prayers and thoughts. 
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- Coffee after a night of lying awake and some nasty dreams. No idea why. Some friends (?) of mine were shooting people in the street from the window of my room in the house I grew up in with some big calibre automatic weapons. I was supposed to participate but my gun was broken or something. wtf? Can’t shake the images in my mind this morning.
Well, I am sober and clean. That’s something right? Work now. Have a good one all. Weather is still glorious here. A pic as illustration. Love.
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