Your place is gorgeous! I’m glad the timing of it all is good for you, too.
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Gorgeous @Girlinterrupted! It looks cozy and calm. Perfect place to relax and enjoy that gorgeous view you have.
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Love your room, I’d love to sit and look out over a view like that, bet there’s always something to watch x
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So a second check in for me today. Went to my first aa meeting on zoom. That was both weird and familiar.
I went to aa a fair bit back in 2015 but never really worked at it and saw it more as group therapy (which it kind of is)
Would love to say I had an enormous amount of peace of mind but that will come and hopefully to us all 
Will be going to another or two tomorrow.
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Those butterflies are beautiful @Fargesia_murielae. I’m sure your wife will love them. You’ve been so thoughtful and understanding.
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Hi everyone. Well, I’m finally home, back in CH. It’s nice to be back, that’s for sure. I ended up travelling by train instead of flying since there were no convenient flights. Anyway, I like taking the train.
So tonight, my counter has just rolled over to 24 days, so the 1-month mark is getting closer and closer.
I’m hoping NOT to have another “drinking dream” tonight, that was annoying. Maybe the fact of being at home and in my own bed will help to keep such dreams at bay !
In any event, all is well here… tomorrow is going to be a busy day, lots of work to get done for Monday.
Goodnight all… and for those of you in N.America, have a happy Labour Day weekend.
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Yay for you @Girlinterrupted. You can now completely move on. Your place is gorgeous. Enjoy it!
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That’s great. I’m happy for you,and your place looks amazing 
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Awesome place you got Beth. And I’m glad for you the divorce finally happened. Onward and upward lady.
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Day 205~ Today’s been lovely. Relaxing and kinda a lazy day but that’s ok, these kind of days are needed. Went for a walk around the lake and sat by it did my word search book took some pictures and listened to some tunes. It was nice. On the drive out to the lake I got this surge of emotions and teared up. They were happy tears. The windows were down and sunroof open, mountain air blowing in, sun shining it was so serene and peaceful. I felt so much gratitude in that moment. This shit is real. Happiness and loving life is really possible. I’m living it and feeling it each day more and more.
I’ll be honest earlier today I was having some pretty severe cravings. I haven’t really had them this intense in a while. I think it was my surroundings everyone here at camp drinking and partying. I removed myself from the situation and my addictive thoughts for drinking went away. That little drinking devil will always try to weasel his way back in my mind but I’m strong now and I kicked his ass out!
Keep killing it friends. We are so much stronger than we give ourselves credit for. Being sober is amazing. Being sober allows us to enjoy all this world has to offer. Best of all being sober gives us our lives back.
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You are so amazing! And I wish I was there. That food sounds wonderful. I too lost my brother to suicide. He was only 22. He battled with vodka and depression. You’re really doing amazing things for the community and yourself. I can relate to your pain. The last thing my brother said was “I hope God will forgive me”. I’m happy to hear you vent anytime.
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I actually had a pretty good morning. I got up and hit the trails for a run. I got some chores done around the house.
My first therapy session yesterday went well, I think. She gave me some actions to take over the next couple weeks and some tools to use when I’m struggling.
But now I’ve been sitting at the Police Station waiting to be photographed and fingerprinted for the last hour. I’ll probably be here another hour before they get to me. My good Saturday mood is dwindling.
I know everyone probably says this but, what I’m being charged with is ridiculous. I can’t believe they’re even pursuing this. Granted, anytime I’ve ended up in these situations alcohol has been involved. If I hadn’t been drinking that night, I wouldn’t be here.
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Sorry I missed this. Glad I was scrolling through and saw it. IMHO You’re Dad is definitely trying to help you. That is so cool. I’ve been thinking a lot about my Dad too. But he’s never in my dreams. He self medicated on booze and pills for his chronic back pain. The only father and son thing I can remember is going to bars with him. Then he just up and quit drinking and smoking one day just a little younger than me I think he was. I’m hoping I will follow in his footsteps in that sense. It’s so cool you got your dad like some kind of guardian angel.
I also been listening to Eric Clapton a lot lately. “In My Fathers Eyes”. Never heard that song before. Sometimes on my walk I feel my Dads presence.
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Thank you, Tristan.
I’m struggling right now. Prayer has always worked for me in the past but I’ve managed to forget about it. I needed the reminder. Thank you for sharing. I’m really happy for you that things are taking a turn for the best. Good for you. 
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Same experience with stopping while things were going good. There is real power in prayer.
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@Briella all my support and understanding. I experienced so many starting points. I am still in day 8 but please please, PLEASE: never ever give up!!! You will do better this time 
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Day 12 for me free of alcohol and nicotine feeling the chains of addiction becoming lighter everyday and I’m floating free. Peace out friends
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Love your posts, they always make me 
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